The Savedra Monologues...

Sister Ali's Home Visit!

2011-05-31T14:10:00.001-05:00

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My Daybook Entry - 05 23 11

2011-05-23T14:55:00.000-05:00

Outside My Window... I love to watch the squirrels and birds do their thing! They are so full of spunk and life! Reminds me to pay attention to the little things...

I am Listening to... me talk to myself in my head. I also have an "easy listening" station playing in my office.

I am wearing ... my new zebra and pink flips! I love them!!!!! SO COMFY!

I am Thankful For... PROGRESS!!! I am seeing progress in the goals we've set for ourselves in the Savedra house. I am so pumped! We are seeing things through that we've been talking about for a year! Little things make a HUGE difference!

I am Pondering... how to accomplish a HUGE goal I have in front of me, as fast as possible!

I am Reading...
1. The Mary Kay Way
2. One Thousand Gifts
3. So Long Insecurity

I am Thinking... about my job. Ill leave it at that. :)

I am Creating... order! I LOVE IT!

Towards Rhythm and Beauty... There's a song by Katie Perry called, "firework" and I am crazy about it!!! I dont like the video, but I do love the words to this song.

Toward Personal Care... GYM.

I am Hoping and Praying... for our future children, for energy everyday and focus and Divine Direction, for business growth, for patience, for order and continued peace.

One of My Favorite Things... Wedding Cake Sno Cones!

A Few Plans for the Rest of the Week... Work, MK, Packing, Hair Appt, Dr's Appt...Sleep, REST.

A Picture Thought I'm sharing... This is a picture of Joplin, Missouri. Tornadoes have killed 89 people! This is one of my greatest fears! Terrifying! Missouri and all affected: We're praying for you!

Spring is Springing Up All Around!

2011-05-09T11:28:00.005-05:00

Spring is definitely 'springing up' around and in the Savedra House!!! :) Flowers planted, new yard tools, brand new chimes from my Mom & Dad, beautiful landscaping ideas and spring cleaning is in full swing! I think I am falling in love with Spring! Beauty is everywhere!!!

As this new season moves in my house and yard, a new season is springing up in my heart. It's an exciting season that involves starting anew, taking some time to smell the newly bloomed roses and a chance for "do-overs" if things didn't work out as planned last time! Getting rid of the old, dusty, dead roots in my life that I allowed to pull me into old habits that Ive never liked and ushering in new thoughts, healthier decisions and most of all a brighter attitude on things that hurt! Change is never comfortable but sometimes, very needed.

Also, I'm asking you to please pray for Michael and me as we choose to enter into a new season and journey in our lives. I'm not going into details yet, but yes, we are both wonderful and very excited at what this could mean for us!!! This will be uncharted territory but well worth the work and sacrifice.

Enjoy some of our Spring Planting Pictures...

Peace and Everything Good,
+Ragan

My Daybook Entry - 05 02 11

2011-05-02T16:45:00.003-05:00

Outside My Window... Sunny, Windy, Bright! We are expecting rain {and could really use it!} but I love the sunny sky too!

I am Listening to...the radio I play as a noise blocker and my friend next to me laughing! Makes me giggle inside and smile big! big! on the outside!

I am wearing ... black flowy skirt, turquoise shirt with bright pink flowers and white writing.

I am Thankful For... a fantastic weekend. We got so many things done that we needed to and we continue to hack away at our "TO DO" List. Also, SUPER THANKFUL for sleep. I got 8 hours all 3 nights of the weekend and that never happens. Sleep means a lot to me - helps with my attitude and enthusiasm. I can serve the Lord better with more sleep!

I am Pondering... what time to leave work to hit the least amount of traffic.

I am Reading...
1. The Mary Kay Way
2. One Thousand Gifts
3. So Long Insecurity
4. *NEW ADDITION* Good to Great
{& PS - i LOVE LOVE LOVE my Nook E-Reader!}

From the Kitchen...This weekend I got some herbs to resurrect our herb garden that my MIL got us as a house blessing gift. It died pretty quickly after got it b/c of the long journey from place A to our house. We really love the idea and are so thankful for the gift that we decided to plant 3 more herbs that I'm bonkers about: lavender, sweet mint & rosemary. Tonight I will make rosemary chicken. I'm pumped!

I am Thinking...that there are things I need to do in order to move my life in the direction the Lord is urging me. I am so thankful/grateful/appreciative of God's gift of Michael to me, everyday! I am really stunned and stopped in my tracks a lot when I think of how precious he is to me and how perfectly chosen he is for me. There are some self discipline issues Im looking at and saying, "why is this little dumb thing an issue in my life?! why dont i just DO what I need to DO in order to tackle this and take this down...???"

I am Creating... flower gardens. Tonight I will plant and hang some beautiful flowers -- super pumped!!! --...I'll definitely post next week.

Towards Rhythm and Beauty... I love music and the older I get I love to groove. I will find myself just moving when I hear a song...moving something: my hands, my feet, my head. I just HAVE TO DANCE when I hear a good tune. It's nuts. During Mass last night the choir sang "Resurrection Song" by Matt Maher as the entrance song and I was just bee-boppin' in my pew. Sometimes I feel the JOY of the Lord come through my body!! Haa! Haa! Even when food I taste is good, I dance! Wild!

Toward Personal Care... I found a new leave in conditioner that I love...and Im pumped. Because I process my hair so much with color - thats a whole different entry - it tends to get dry. So, Im fired up to have a new moisturizer that does my hair good! :)

Living the Liturgical Year at Home... We are really working to LIVE JOY in this Easter season & to stay focused! We, like many, can allow the rough and tough of LIFE to get us distracted and even sometimes, down in the stress dumps. Gratefulness is uplifting and causes me to see things from a much better perspective! JOY! JOY! JOY!

I am Hoping and Praying... for those in my heart community that have left the Catholic Church to return home. We miss you! We need you! Im also very committed to praying for my friends who's marriages are struggling due to infidelity or betrayal. My heart goes out to these people. Finally, praying for my husband's work life. He is so great at what he does but it's a stressful environment. I'm sure that I don't know HOW STRESSFUL, but I know it's tough! I'm praying that the Lord use Michael as an example of morality and Christian leadership in his office.

On Keeping Home... This is where my "to do" list is coming in handy. I am working on organizing/cleaning my home office and I am working on laundry. Our sweet friend Beatrice comes on Friday so I'm thankful for her gifts too! I love coming home to a clean house!

One of My Favorite Things...SPRING! I can see/feel/smell the season everywhere. PINK is everywhere! There's a pep in everyone's step!

A Few Plans for the Rest of the Week...Work, Confession, Mass, Organization, Mary Kay scheduling, facials, parties and phone time, good QT with my man & finally a HUGE CELEBRATION honoring my best of best friends, my Momma!!!!!

A Picture Thought I'm sharing... This is in honor of Mother's Day which is coming up later this week. I am so thankful/honored/humbled to have my Mom as my Mom. She is a REAL WOMAN in so many areas. She is kind, honest, gentle, prayerful, loving, caring, sensitive and so close to the Lord! She is an example to many and is loved by all! This woman has taught me many things: How to love, serve, give without expecting in return, minister to women and teens. She has also taught me how to be open to the Holy Spirit and to move within His urgings. I LOVE MY MOMMA!!! :) This picture was taken about 6 months ago at a friend's wedding near College Station. We look so much alike, don't we?!

Did I Write This?

2011-05-02T14:00:00.004-05:00

I Need to Know the Truth

Ginny L. Yttrup
She Reads Featured Author

“Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.” John 8:32 (NIV)

The diagnosis was unexpected. Unsettling. And followed by tears of…relief? I climbed into my car, fastened the seatbelt, and wiped away the tears. Why am I relieved by difficult news? I wondered.

As my doctor’s words ran through my mind, so did a surprising phrase: I’m not crazy. The relief, I recognized, was founded in the truth that the diagnosis revealed.

When did I start believing I was crazy? I recalled the chronic pain I’ve suffered for the last two years. As I did, familiar accusations ran through my mind: You’re such a wimp. There’s nothing wrong with you. You’re crazy. Ah, there it was, the lie that had slithered unbidden into my mind and nested there.

I’ve spent many of my adult years uncoiling the lies I’ve believed about myself. Venomous lies that poisoned my mind following a dozen years of childhood sexual abuse: You’re worthless. No one will ever love you. And the heartbreaker… God doesn’t care.

I’m not the only one who has believed the lies, right?

You don’t have to be a survivor of childhood abuse to believe lies. I think they’re part of the human condition. And women seem especially susceptible. Perhaps that susceptibility is an imprint of the fall when Eve believed that first untruth the serpent hissed at her in the garden.

But good news comes with the truth. Not our truth. But the Truth — Jesus Christ.

The Bible says, “Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus…” (Romans 8:1). In other words, when condemning accusations coil around my mind, I know — I can be fully assured — they’re not from God. And if they’re not from God, they’re not worth believing.

I’m learning to combat the lies by submitting them to the Truth, Jesus.

When the enemy says, “You’re worthless.”

Jesus says, “You are a pearl of great value.”

When the enemy says, “No one will ever love you.”

Jesus says, “You are My beloved.”

When the enemy says, “God doesn’t care.”

Jesus says, “I gave my life that you might have eternal life.”

After my doctor’s appointment when I recognized I’d fallen prey to the lies again, another thought went through my mind: You’ll never get it right. Good grief! This time, I had to laugh. I was aware of the crafty serpent and wasn’t falling for another lie. Instead, I turned to Jesus and thanked Him for the freedom found in Him, the Truth.

While the enemy will continue to try and thwart God’s truth, we can know he’s already lost the battle. It’s a done deal. In Genesis 3 we read that the head of the serpent will be crushed under Jesus’ heel, defeating him for all time. He holds no real power over us.

The longer we walk with Jesus, and the more we seek His truth, the more we’ll recognize His voice and enjoy the freedom found in Him. It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. (Galatians 5:1, NIV)

Dear Lord, I pray that I’ll recognize Your voice above all others. Give me ears to hear You. Teach me how to live in the freedom of Your truth and thank You for the gift of Your grace. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

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The above devotion is as familiar as if I would have written it myself. I am so thankful for Proverbs 31 Ministries. This group of women writers are so willing to highlight the issues that we face, as women, on a daily basis. Even if you've gotten past this issue, you'll see that a refresher course is helpful! We can never be reminded enough of how much the Lord loves us and believes in us as His Beloved...but that also means that we make the devil very upset by believing in God's love for us. The evil one's desire is to break us down, tear us up and definitely keep us crushed. In the name of Jesus, for all His women and girls, let's claim TRUTH!
It was just this weekend, over Saturday's lunch table, that I shared some lies from the evil one with my husband that I've carried for years. Lies that I've lived with and even though I know better, they still effect my heart when I'm not doused in prayer and the Sacraments. It's easy to believe the lies b/c they play on my emotions and my insecurities.

Walking the talk is tough but necessary.
+Ragan

It's not You...It's ME!

2011-04-26T15:35:00.002-05:00

Do you remember every getting that ever-dreaded break up line? I remember being in the 6th grade and hearing that for the first time from Travis Hansen right before Valentine's Day. I also remember running across the street to where my mom was visiting her friend Grace and breaking down in total emotion in her arms, "Momma! Tra-Tra-Travis broke up with me!!" I don't know why I even had a boyfriend in the 6th grade. I know that it wasn't serious but I was obviously invested enough to be heartbroken!

Lately I find myself saying that exact statement a lot, to myself, "Ragan, it's not them...it's YOU!" Harsh. Truth. In some relationships I cringe when I see an email come through from the other person. As soon as I see their name in my Inbox, I already think "I'm sure Ive done something wrong!". For example, I saw an email come through just yesterday from a friend, who will remain nameless, and as soon as I saw it I thought, "I bet my Easter gift was a bad choice!". Why in the world would I even think that!? Why in a gazillion years would my mind go there first? There has to be a reason, right?!

I've thought about that ever since it happened yesterday, and NO! that is not what her email was about at all! I am sure there are many reasons I think this way but the number one I can think of is that the evil one is playing games with me and I am believing his lies -- if even for a moment! You see, I know better! I am better that to believe that. Instead of listening to that voice, I am working to replace those thoughts with different thoughts, more positive thoughts and less fear, concern, worry and paranoia. it comes back to not feeling like Enough. Enough. Enough. Maybe this is something women or humans in general, struggle with but it's something that I am just now beginning to identify in myself and I do not like it. I know that as I continue down this road toward unwrapping this, I will uncover more and more that will be helpful to my own growth.

I know in my heart of hearts, it's not my friends, it's my mind set and my own personal belief in me.

My First Daybook Entry -- Thanks, Aimee! :)

2011-04-25T13:56:00.007-05:00

Outside My Window... Sunny, Windy, Bright! We are expecting rain {and could really use it!} but I love the sunny sky too!

I am Listening to...3 things at one time: a Mary Kay Education CD in my right ear, my radio in my left year and my boss over all that! :)

I am wearing ... One of my new Spring outfits! I love the colors of this season: pink, turquoise, white, yellow!

I am Thankful For... a wonderful Easter Sunday! Both Eucharist and the family day were wonderful! FOOD, LAUGHTER, JOY, CELEBRATION!!!

I am Pondering... how to move forward in some areas of my life that I really am ready to grow in!

I am Reading...
1. The Mary Kay Way
2. One Thousand Gifts
3. So Long Insecurity

From the Kitchen...I dont know that I like this section of this daybook that Im borrowing from Aimee Landreneau's blog :)! This is something Im growing in BIG TIME! I am striving to be more organized in this. Meal planning is a big thing Im learning! Tonight, we'll have a baked tillapia with veggies. We need to go to the grocery store this week at some point!

I am Thinking... that my life is so blessed and that sometimes I need to be more grateful. I am so easily agitated with situations that don't go the way I think they should. With a life that is as busy and hectic {self inflicted, I know!} as ours is, I feel like I need less STUFF and more simplicity. I am also thinking that I need a really strict structure to my daily life. These things are NOT my specialty. Praying for God's Wisdom and Order!

I am Creating... a hefty to do list for our home, a flower garden in the front yard!

Towards Rhythm and Beauty... I am making time to play my guitar just because this week.

Toward Personal Care... Off to the Gym I go!!!!! CARDIO and stretching!

I am Hoping and Praying... for those in my heart community that have left the Catholic Church to return home. We miss you! We need you!

One of My Favorite Things... HOLY DAY Holidays!! Easter has always been one of my favorite HOLY DAY Holiday!! I am so excited that Jesus did what He did! I get so jazzed when I think of His GLORY and His AWESOMENESS!!!! ALLELUIA!

A Few Plans for the Rest of the Week...Work, Confession, Mass, Organization, Stewardship Meeting on Tuesday night, Mary Kay scheduling, facials, parties and phone time, good QT with my man & creativity in our front yard!

A Picture Thought I'm sharing... This picture is of one of my favorite families at our church. The Osodes. The little man to my right is our 13 month old Godson, Nathan Louis! We spent a while after Mass getting the "O CREW" together for this very special picture! Thanks to Tula for taking it! This precious Nigerian family exudes JOY in a way Ive never experienced before! Michale and I are so honored to be a part of this family!

Wisdom & Delight!

2011-03-28T15:01:00.003-05:00

Over the past few days our life has looked different than normal, but it's all been such a blessing! I have seen my husband move in a new way spiritually. He has really taken the lead on a situation that is in front of us and I honestly could not be more proud! I can see the Lord moving through him in large and small ways. It's been a beautiful view!

Over the past week or so Ive seen such an increase in our communication and team work. Sometimes things just happen & I don't catch it until after it's done but I find it to be really important when God whispers to my heart, "Look and see what I am doing!" I am always so excited to see what AMAZING WORK God has in store for Michael and me. I know how beautiful marriage has been in our lives but I also know how purifying it has been for me too! That being said, I went and visited our wedding website today. I read the below post and it gave me goosebumps!

I cannot believe it! I just cannot even believe that I will be Mrs. Julian Michael Savedra in 32 days...!!! I feel a little overwhelmed by the AWESOMENESS of that statement! I really am shocked!

Ive waited on this season in my life for so long! I really believed that I would have married earlier in my life. There are a couple men that were pretty special. At one point I was days away from engagement to another man. What kept those guys from being my holy spouse? I don't know. I can only believe that they were not God's BEST for me. They are now God's best for others.

Michael, for me, is my perfect match. He is everything I'm not. He's so very aware of my shortcomings and my faults and loves me anyway and STILL wants to spend everyday for the rest of his life with me! can you imagine? WHO DOES THAT!? :) Michael does.
He loves me. He is kind, gentle, strong, funny, easy going, loving and affectionate. He is one of a kind. He is the only man Ive ever known, minus my dad, who has told me, "no matter what, I will not abandon you". That means a lot to a woman like me. I've come a long way with what we call in ministry, "daddy issues" but I am still very worried about not being enough for him...good enough, thin enough, kind enough, holy enough...the list goes on and on. Michael has reassured me over and over that HE IS IN THIS TO BE WITH ME...to MARRY me. I cannot even begin to share what my heart feels about that!

In 32 days (and counting...) he and I will stand before God and our amazing family (spiritual and physical) and choose each other forever. I am honored. I am amazed. I am floored that God has brought this man to me now...at this time in my life. Today. I am so thankful! Thank you Lord, over and over!!! I will love him well, usher him to heaven, see him as a soul and as my soul mate. I promise!!!

I feel so honored and special to be in this sacramental, covenant marriage with this man. I am so humbled, still today, at how much God has healed us through in such a short time. Grateful. Excited to see what else HE has in store for us.

In the Words of Kelly Pease...

2010-07-05T23:39:00.002-05:00

My friend Kelly wrote this on her blog and it's my heart right now -- Thanks, Kell for writing it out for me :) ++Ragan

This summer has been the beginning of a whole new era for me… ministry with kids. I don’t mean ministering to kids; I mean doing ministry while a baby with my fat cheeks and my husband’s blue eyes is screaming his head off in the team room. I have been running off of stages across the great state of Louisiana to feed my child and if I didn’t stop to talk to you on the way I am so sorry. I am still figuring all of this out. And in the figuring this is what I realize: life in Christ… it works. It works because God told someone to give us a free mini-van. It works because the sweetest lady ever offered to hold my baby while I gave a talk. It works because it’s God’s economy and everything is giving. Everything is gift. Everything is generosity.

The idea in my head is this: everything I thought was victory and everything I thought was defeat was really all the generosity of God. Every time I had a broken heart, God in His generosity was preparing me for more. This is a season of seeing the “more”. In a prayer time during worship at one of the conferences this summer I thought, “Thank you God for loving me enough to take away what I thought I wanted in order to give me what I really wanted.”

Waiting on the Lord is where it’s at, yall (said in a Paula Deen voice). Don’t be discouraged. If it didn’t work out like you thought it would, remember His generosity and that it’s not always packaged the way you expect it to be. I would rather be on the floor, by the crib, in the dark than anywhere else in this whole universe and I am only here because He is generous!! Generosity is cool… spread the word. ~KPL

New Pill, Same Misinformation

2010-06-24T10:33:00.000-05:00

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10 Commandments of Marriage

2010-06-05T12:14:00.001-05:00

I read this today and really love it! Wanted to share...

Make your marriage a top priority - Life makes many demands on us and it is easy for our couple relationship to be put on the back burner. Schedule couple time.

Make your spouse a top priority - When you have limited time and energy and you struggle with conflicting needs such as overtime at work, friends or even volunteering, remember your spouse's needs and desires come first.

Share - Share your thoughts and dreams, your values, your vision, and your workload.

Pray - Pray for your spouse and your marriage every day. Better yet, pray together.

Support - Develop a network of married friends who can support you and you, them.

Learn - Read, attend marriage education/enrichment classes, grow in your understanding of what make a good marriage and practice new skills every day.

Respect - ALWAYS treat each other with respect. Remember common courtesy, especially when you are angry or upset, and consider your spouse's feelings, needs and desires as important as your own.

Don't expect perfection - Everyone has problems, misunderstandings, hurts and disagreements.

Be willing to admit wrongs and apologize - Then, plan how to be sure the same thing doesn't happen again, and accept sincere apologies from your spouse as well.

Commit - To becoming more loving every day

I Can Do Anything Good!

2010-05-30T23:50:00.003-05:00

jessica's daily affirmations...

this little girl inspires me. I spend so much time thinking about what i need to WORK on. watching her celebrate her gifts and her "goods" makes me smile! this is how God sees us, in my opinion...with this much enthusiasm! He sees our goods!

My NOW Mentality

2010-05-06T10:39:00.001-05:00

I am so used to instant results: fast food restaurants, online shopping, iPhone apps for everything, drive through coffee shops, IM, text messaging, online bill pay...you get the idea...and Ive definitely become an impatient person when is comes to what I want, when I want it! Ive thought lately about what the days were like when only RICH PEOPLE had cell phones (Zack Morris phones!)...wow! how times have changed! Now, my friend's 2 year old son knows how to use my iPhone better than most adults!

Ive come to realize that Ive carried this mentality over to losing weight...I WANT TO BE SKINNY NOW and I definitely DONT want to wait!!!!!! Ive always looked for a magical pill, super effective exercise routine, or a miracle supplement to make the weight loss more INSTANT & NOW. I have been on countless "diets" where Ive lost a lot of lbs and then gained them all back. Ive also taken tons of supplements to suppress my appetite.

What I realized Monday night was this: If I don't do this the good, old fashioned way instead of anything extreme (eg: lypo, gastric, pills, Atkins, SugarBusters, etc)..... and focus on portion control, counting calories, being aware of what I put in my mouth & EXERCISE --ik!-- I may never learn healthy eating boundaries, create healthy habits and I may always be on this roller coaster. Everyone has their own roller coaster. Everyone has their own battle they're fighting...this is mine. I want that quick fix...and know that it's not the best for me....I am my own proof! This is where WW comes in. It's a program that can help me track and my accountability partners are helping me to make wise decisions until Im strong enough to make them myself.

My overall goal is to be healthy and have more energy AND lets not forget the power of feeling better and looking better!
Im being challenged to change life long habits....remember my last blog where i noted that Im a night snacker? This is the HARDEST part for me (minus exercising after a long day at work). Instead of eating a small bag of my favorite Dorito's, I should snack on a few pieces of celery dipped in a tiny bit of ranch dressing. These habits have been solidified in me for a long time, friends and it will require me to stop and THINK of everything I place in my mouth.

MAKING BETTER DECISIONS: Last night I went to eat at a local Mexican Restaurant for Cinco de Mayo with a girlfriend. I was pretty nervous walking into the evening b/c my weight loss is on my mind so much these days. I had a "come to Jesus meeting" with myself before I left my car that went something like this, "Ok, so....you will need to be able to enjoy time with family and friends in 'normal' situations like this. you can do this! make wise decisions and be fair to yourself...remember Ragan -- nothing tastes as good as healthy and thin feel!!!" YALL! It was really an empowering moment...I felt prepared and had a plan! I followed that plan exactly as I set out to do and I felt so great about that!

After dinner we went to see a movie ("The Backup Plan" with Jennifer Lopez whom I LOVE!) and I knew that I was walking into another opportunity to really practice self control. I still wanted to enjoy something in the movie but instead of the popcorn with extra butter and large coke, i went with........a LARGE BOTTLED WATER! I cant tell you that Ive EVER done that. Im a BIG justifyer like "well, it's a date night" or "well, it's my favorite actress" or "i mean, it IS a holiday!"...my personality thinks in parties or celebrations -- and I guarantee ya, I can always find something to make the day or event a party or a reason to celebrate. So, I sat through the movie and enjoyed my water and felt satisfied...most of all, i was proud of me!

XOXOXOXOX!

Coming Out of the Kitchen...

2010-05-03T22:52:00.003-05:00

The hardest struggle Ive faced my entire life is food....whether I was OVER eating or UNDER eating, Ive always really been obsessed with food. I know people who appreciate food and can really enjoy a good meal. No, that's not what Im talking about here. Im talking about how I LOVE LOVE LOVE food. I really enjoy eating. I look forward to eating -- all day! It's been something that has ruled my life for as long as I can remember.

As a child I'd look forward to the popcorn at the movies more than the movie itself OR Id look forward to eating the cheese and crackers while dinner was being made. I guess if I was eating only healthy things then my love for food wouldn't be a problem but Im a snacker. I love to snack at night. Ive realized that at work or if Im busy working on something than Im totally fine and can remind myself of my goals. In the evenings Im more tired & Im less dedicated.

Im going to work this out....one day at a time. to say i need to lose x-amount of lbs is overwhelming to me but the smaller goals are more do'able. So, after a week or so of moving with that in mind, I am working from the ground up ... from my inner core Im trying to relearn how I need to function in this weakness. What I say a lot to myself these days are "Lord, in my weakness YOU are strong"...and I walk away and suck on a straw of water! :)

Stay Tuned...Life's about to change!

xoxoxoxxo

2010-01-08T18:17:00.002-06:00

This is the Day...This is the Day that the Lord has made...that the Lord has made. Let us Rejoice! Let us Rejoice and be Glad in it...and Be Glad in it! This is the day that the Lord has made. Let us rejoice and be glad in it! This is the day. This is the day that the Lord has made!!!!

The song of my heart today. Make perfect sense to me being that today is my Papaw's bday! Happy Bday Papaw! I love you in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD!

A Good Word -

2009-12-30T11:28:00.004-06:00

My new favorite verse that I hate to love:

"Don't run from tests and hardships, brothers and sisters. As difficult as they are, you will ultimately find joy in them; if you embrace them, your faith will blossom under pressure and teach you true patience as you endure. And true patience brought on by endurance will equip you to complete the long journey and cross the finish line - mature, complete and wanting nothing. If you don't have all the wisdom needed for this journey, then all you have to do is ask God for it, and God, who is never stingy when it comes to wisdom, will grant all that you need. He gives lavishly and never scolds you for asking." (The Voice translation)

Merry Christmas, Indeed!

2009-12-28T22:50:00.002-06:00

In all my years I doubt Ill ever forget this Christmas. We loved every minute with our loved ones and enjoyed our conversations with out of town family! The time has been rich! We've really been blessed!

On Sunday afternoon Michael and I returned to our apartment having been gone for 3.5 days to find that our home had been burglarized! We walked in like normal and all of a sudden realized that our window was broken and that our stuff was gone & moved. It literally looked like a scene from CSI. It was a feeling Id like to forget, to say the least! It's been a day and I still cant shake it! Yes, stuff was stolen but the biggest thing in my heart is that our space had been violated. I am so thankful that we were not home and that our pups were not there either. Im so thankful that we have renters insurance and Im so thankful that we have had the help and cooperation of everyone involved. The policeman God sent to help us had a St. Michael the Archangel prayer card in his booklet that he put our information into. That was consoling in itself.

The bigger picture is that I am grateful but still a bit shaken up. We're having an alarm system installed on Wednesday and I'm not going back without my Sofie or Michael. Im just not that brave yet although chances are they will not come back to our house again...I dont care! Im praying for this to be an easy process with paperwork & with the insurance people. Im also praying for the conversion of the robbers. I hope they saw our crucifixes and our St. Maximillian Kolbe icon & our prayer cards all over the place... :)

Thanks for the prayers....Let the House Hunting begin :)

My Most Thankfuls....:)

2009-11-26T19:22:00.003-06:00

Jesus. My Catholic Faith. My Husband. My Parents. My Family. My Job. Michael's Job. My Sisters & {best} Friends. My Health. My Drive. My Business. God's Mercy & Forgiveness. My Prayer Partners. Health Insurance. Laughter. Good Food. Sofie. Sye. ... These are a few of my "Most Thankfuls" for this year.

I am so blessed and I am so appreciative that 2009 has been such a memorable year. It has been one of challenge and of triumph. Of Growth and of Humility. 2009 held the majority of my first year as a married woman. It also carried my heart in it's first year without my Papaw. I will never look back at this year as ordinary...it was definitely extraordinary.

My biggest thanks goes to those the God that Created me:

Thank you for allowing me to serve you and to be a member of the greatest family a girl could ask for. I am forever humbled by your choice for me.
Thank you for the most amazing man that you brought into my life during a time were I was ready for it to just be me & You, Lord. You caught my heart off guard with this one...and I'm forever grateful. He's definitely worth the wait! :)
Thank you for allowing me to have real sisters although biologically I have zero. You designed these ladies' hearts for mine and mine for theirs. Although we're all in different stages of life, You make it work beautifully. These sisters shower me with love and truth. You're all up in that, I know!

All day today this song has been playing in my head:

I'm Forever Grateful

You did not wait for me
to draw near to You
But You clothed Yourself
with frail humanity
You did not wait for me
to cry out to You
But You let me hear Your Voice
calling me

And I'm Forever Grateful to You
I'm Forever Grateful for The Cross
I'm Forever Grateful to You
That You came to seek and save the lost

(repeat all)

That You came to seek and save the lost

"Don't Worry, Girl! I Gotcha Covered"

2009-09-28T22:10:00.003-05:00

That's how I felt today. Today was one of those days where I woke up with one idea of how the typical Monday would go and it really went in the total opposite direction - Praise be to God!

Ive never had any sort of mouth pain or issue other than a very traumatic car accident that caused my front tooth to begin to die. Over the past 10+ years Ive been very careful with this tooth and even got a new crown on it for our wedding last year. I'm very mindful of what I eat, chew, chomp and grind. I'm conscious of this front tooth every day and up until this point, all has been A-OK!

I woke up on Saturday with an achy mouth and slight throbbing. I had a Mary Kay party scheduled so nothing was standing in my way! I was distracted by my tooth but not consumed. At 4am in the morning on Sunday, I BECAME CONSUMED with the pain in my mouth. I woke up like "a cat on a tin roof" just like in the movies...ya know!? Where they sit STRAIGHT UP in bed and have this pained look on their face? I'm sure I looked just like that. My tooth hurt when I closed my mouth. I was maneuvering my lips as though I had braces (when ppl lift their lips up and over their front teeth so to not cut their lips on the braces?). It was miserable. I chose to stick it out and had some great moments of calm and some incredible moments of pain! Finally, at dinner last night with Tula, I called and left a message on my dentist's phone asking for a call back on Monday (today) morning.

Today I woke up feeling much better, had slept well (8hours! - which never happens!), and really felt as though this Monday had nothin' on me! I had spent a productive hour and a half at home prior to leaving for the office and that always sets a great tone for me. On my way to work the dentist calls and says, "Ragan, you need to come in immediately! Can you come now?" "Umm...Yes, Ma'am. Sure. Ill be there in 30 minutes or so". (we live in Houston, remember....30 minutes is your minimum drive time from one place to another...usually it's longer!) So, I make all the needed phone calls and am on my way north to the dentist's office. Once Im there and checked in Im taken to the back where an Xray is taken and Im asked to recount the weekend's events...what led up to me leaving the message on the dentist's voicemail, etc. After a few minutes with the hygenist trying to distract me with "Dancing with the Stars" conversation, Dr. Jones comes into the room and recommends that I visit an Endodontist. "A who?" I ask. An Endodontist. He'll be able to tell us more. O, ok! No big deal is the vibe Im getting...No biggie...A second opinion. OK, cool. I can deal with opinions. Not a worry.

So, an appointment is made within minutes for me to meet with Mr. Endodontist TODAY at 1pm. Im thankful for my General Dentist's help and I move on. I head back to work. As soon as I arrive I visit with my coworkers and as soon as they hear the word "ENDODONTIST" the words ROOT CANAL come toward me. ROOT CANAL?????? No one said anything about a ROOT CANAL. What exactly does that mean? What do they do? Is it painful? I can feel the anxiety & fear rising up in me. "Calm Down. Ive taken care of it all" is what my heart "hears". So, I listen that "voice" and I move on.

I arrive at 1pm at the Endodontist's office (beautiful office, btw!) and Im greeted by a precious woman with great hair and of course, BEAUTIFUL Teeth. (They all have perfect teeth and teeth related offices!) I am enjoying the company of the receptionists so much as I wait my turn to visit with the doctor. Then I over hear one of the ladies behind the counter speaking to a patient on the phone "Well, Ma'am...Did your crown break before or after you left the office?"...My heart starts to beat a little faster than normal..."yes, Ma'am well a Root Canal is when we numb the area above and around the needed tooth and we go in and clean out the root canal associated with that tooth or teeth." Then the sweet lady on the phone must be listing off her symptoms which included sensitivity to hot and cold, excruciating pain, and on/off throbbing. my heart was bouncing in my chest and my stomach felt like jello. SO, in that moment I had what I call a "come to Jesus meeting". It went like this:

DearEST Jesus - I believe you can do ANYTHING. I need you to do something BIG! RIGHT! NOW! Heal my tooth, God. PUH-LEASE! Please dont let me hurl in this office. Thank you. +Amen.

Almost immediately I "heard", "Do not be afraid. It's already handled".

My name was called and I went to my exam room where I was met by the sweetest girl with great lipgloss on! She listened intently and took notes. She XRAYed my tooth again but this time included the neighboring teeth in the picture. She then showed me what my tooth's root was SUPPOSED to look like and sadly enough I had to admit that my tooth was not looking too good. We then went through the options and then she said the doctor would come to talk with me about what he suggested in a moment. In what felt like 2 seconds later the kindest, gentlest doctor came into the small room and explained why a ROOT CANAL was necessary. And honestly, yall, I think Id have bought whatever he was sellin'. He was so great! I think I almost WANTED a Root Canal by the time he was done talking with me. I took his advice and agreed to the procedure. He said "GREAT! Ill be right back and we'll get started!"
WHAT!??!!?? Right now, as in TODAY!? Right now, TODAY!? I wasnt ready for that. I guess I thought that Id make an appointment for a week or 2 away and that would be all. TODAY was not in my plan.

I called Michael at work, called Tula and chatted with my parents. I was crying by the time I got off the phone with them b/c I realized that I was just plain scared!! I sat on the toilet (seat down...no other chair in the bathroom) and just went before the Lord in my heart and said "I believe that You've planned this day out for me and You're taking the best care of me! I need Your consolation and Your peace!" I wiped my tears and walked out of the bathroom and said "OK, Lets do it!"

...to say the least it was a lot of build up to wrap it up like this. The Root Canal was super easy and simple. It was like so many other things Ive experienced with myself. THE BUILD UP IS HUGE (anxiety, distrust, fear, etc.) but the reality was that it was SO NOT worth the drama. The Lord prepped me and walked with me all day through this new and somewhat scary experience. Once I let go and didnt look back, it was simple.

after the RC i went back to work with little to no pain (no pain meds) and I felt so happy and excited that the pain was out and over with...

God, YOU ARE SO GOOD...remind me of today's lessons next time I forget. I love you!

My First Daybook Entry {9.14.09}

2009-09-14T15:31:00.001-05:00

For Today... Monday, September 14th, 2009

Outside my window... it all looks cloudy

I am thinking... I can't wait to go home and see Michael! I missed him so much today.

I am thankful for... the goodness of the people I work with at Schumacher Group! So many special people!

From the kitchen... Tonight is family night, hosted at the Savedra Apartment. We're having baked chicken, roasted asparagus, potato salad and my personal fave: a red, white & blue salad.

I am wearing... a purple shirt with my new favorite brown skirt from Target. No accessories today. It's Monday, remember?

I am creating... my first Daybook entry!

I am going... to the grocery store after work then to Bed, Bath & Beyond to pick up my driver's license.

I am reading... Mary Kay Ash's Auto Biography and really loving it!

I am hoping... I can clean the bathrooms before my parents and Tula come to dinner!

I am hearing... my coworkers chat about schedules.

Around the house... It feels great to have my home office situated! Now, all I need is more space :)

One of my favorite things... a good song on the radio to jam to!

A few plans for the rest of the week: work, family night, dinner with new friends, Mary Kay weekly meeting, Grease with Tula, Date Night, and a relaxing weekend

Love,

St Maximilian Kolbe, Pray for Us

2009-08-14T09:03:00.001-05:00

Maximilian was born in 1894 in Poland and became a Franciscan. He contracted tuberculosis and, though he recovered, he remained frail all his life. Before his ordination as a priest, Maximilian founded the Immaculata Movement devoted to Our Lady. After receiving a doctorate in theology, he spread the Movement through a magazine entitled "The Knight of the Immaculata" and helped form a community of 800 men, the largest in the world.

Maximilian went to Japan where he built a comparable monastery and then on to India where he furthered the Movement. In 1936 he returned home because of ill health. After the Nazi invasion in 1939, he was imprisoned and released for a time. But in 1941 he was arrested again and sent to the concentration camp at Auschwitz.

On July 31, 1941, in reprisal for one prisoner's escape, ten men were chosen to die. Father Kolbe offered himself in place of a young husband and father. And he was the last to die, enduring two weeks of starvation, thirst, and neglect. He was canonized by Pope John Paul II in 1982. His feast day is August 14th.

When Michael and I were planning our wedding last year, we felt it to be very important to pursue a relationship with a Saint and choose him or her to be our family's Patron. We read through many bios of Saints and asked the Lord to show us who a good fit was. Michael and I both really appreciated the connection and devotion that St Maximillian had with Our Blessed Mother, Mary. Ive always been a buddy of St Max Kolbe because of my interest in the persecution of the Jews in the time of the concentration camps. St Max was probably the first Saint I really connected with so I was really excited that Michael and I chose St Max to be our family's patron!

Today, we celebrate you, St Max! Thank you for being our friend, our intercessor and one of our examples of how to love and serve God, even unto death. St Max Kolbe, pray for us! We love you!

Puppy Love!

2009-06-10T09:05:00.002-05:00

On Monday after work, Tula called me and told me she rescued a puppy from 5 o'clock traffic. The puppy was jumping from lane to lane while cars honked at him. Tula picked him up and put him in the back of her SUV...and called me. She knows I'm a HUGE animal rescue promoter and overall animal lover and I'm always wanting to save an animal (which in the past has gotten me into trouble-once, while living in Lafayette, my roommate and I had 7 cats living in our house b/c I kept finding and adopting strays!). So, I did what any good wife would do, I made a plan on how to get Michael to go along with my idea to house the pup until we find his owners. :) We dont know what to call him & for space reasons, we really cant keep him. He hears "Hey Pup!" and "Buddy!" and "Hey Boy!!!"! He's going to be so confused! He's living with Michael, me and our 2 dogs (Sofie & Sye) b/c Michael is home to take him out to potty. He's a pretty large pup! His paws are bigger than Sofie's (black lab mix)! He is having a blast though with his other 2 furry friends! He and Sye are almost the same height so it's a good rumble tumble around our apartment. Sofie is incredibly protective of me and will flash her teeth and give the pup a heavy growl if she thinks he's too close to me.

Here is a picture of our new little friend: (please disregard the pink collar...it's a Sofie Hand Me Down...He will definitely have a complex soon!!)

Saddle Up Your Horses!

2009-06-09T12:39:00.001-05:00

Anyone remember this song?

Saddle up your horses...

Started out this morning in the usual way
Chasing thoughts inside my head of all I had to do today
Another time around the circle try to make it better than the last

I opened up the Bible and I read about me
Said I'd been a prisoner and God's grace had set me free
And somewhere between the pages it hit me like a lightning bolt
I saw a big frontier in front of me and I heard somebody say "let's go"!

CHORUS
Saddle up your horses we've got a trail to blaze
Through the wild blue yonder of God's amazing grace
Let's follow our leader into the glorious unknown
This is a life like no other - this is The Great Adventure

Come on get ready for the ride of your life
Gonna leave long faced religion in a cloud of dust behind
And discover all the new horizons just waiting to be explored
This is what we were created for

(Chorus)

BRIDGE
We'll travel over, over mountains so high
We'll go through valleys below
Still through it all we'll find that
This is the greatest journey that the human heart will ever see
The love of God will take us far beyond our wildest dreams

Yeah... oh saddle up your horses... come on get ready to ride
{The Great Adventure by Steven Curtis Chapman}

I LOVED IT! I remember the days when Id be in the car with friends and we'd BLARE that song as loudly as we could without blowing the speakers! It was empowering and inspiring! One time in particular, I was riding in my BFF's Dad's Mercedes as we traveled to Baton Rouge for an LSU Prayer Meeting. (I bring those details up b/c Aimee and I thought we were so cool in her dad's car...and we totally were! It was a huge change from the 1986 Oldsmobile I drove on a normal day!) Anyway, we were so ready for whatever God has for us! You name it, God...We're on it!!!!! There was a freedom, an unwavering, fearless surrender and definitely a feeling that we could do anything and go anywhere the Lord assigned us! We were His "Top Agents" ready to conquer the World in the Name of Jesus!!!! Wahoo! Im fired up just thinking about it!

Once "real life" responsibility was introduced into my life {bills, jobs, etc.} I began to think that the adventure was long gone. Life's serious side came down hard on me and I felt trapped...sometimes I still do. Sometimes I feel like a butterfly stuck in my own cocoon! When younger, I assumed being "FREE" meant to live without a schedule or discipline and without rules! A modern day hippy for Christ! I felt so much purpose in my mission then ("finding purpose" in everyday is a WHOLE new blog...wont go there today!)

Every time I am able to step outside of my normal routine (vacation, mission trip, retreat) and I get down and dirty with the Lord about my life, I am taken to that time in my where I was fearless and fancy free! I had no problem handing the steering wheel over to God and allowing Him to drive me around and drop me off where He wanted and pick me up when the mission there was complete. I don't find that to be so easy day in and day out. The regularity of life's schedule and obligations are sometimes confining &, for me, blur my focus.

Real Life Application:
There is a chance that Michael will not find a job in Houston or in Texas or in the South, for that matter. There is always the chance that it's time to get back into God's "car" and allow Him to move us & drive us into a new season in our lives. Ive been fighting that for a few weeks. Ive cried to God (& my hubby) many times that I don't want to leave our new home. WE JUST GOT HERE! My parents, our new friends, our community, my career...they are all here! I dont want to start over, again so soon! I feel like we're finally making Houston home and now the possibility of leaving is coming up. Ive been begging God to make it be that we will stay here in Houston or at least nearby.

This morning I have a new heart on this issue. Michael is looking at a few companies in his search and one is in North Carolina, another in West Texas. Today I had a revelation! What if this is an adventure God has set up for us and we miss it b/c of my own selfishness and fear? I dont want to miss out on anything God has for us and our future family! So, Im choosing to accept His plan for us...whatever that may be. I realized too that the FREEDOM I long for is only found when following God's will. FREEDOM is around us everyday in the Lord! Reminds me of the song that says "Where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is FREEDOM!"

So, here we are: seeking, searching and surrendering to God's ALWAYS AWESOME plan for us.
Stay Tuned...
Saddle up your horses we've got a trail to blaze
Through the wild blue yonder of God's amazing grace
Let's follow our leader into the glorious unknown
This is a life like no other - this is The Great Adventure!

New Blog Look + Hubby Goodness!

2009-06-05T11:09:00.001-05:00

Good Morning Friends! :)

Welcome to our new site! My friend Kelly beautifies blogs and she did a great job here! It definitely makes me want to blog more often! Thanks Kelly, so much, for sharing your talents and gifts! I am blessed by you & you have captured the heart of who I am in this design......I LUUUUUUUUUUUUUV It!!!! There were certain things that I knew I wanted on the layout (zebra, fleur de lis, glitter, glam, pink, polka dots, a link to my MK site as well as a link to email me) and she was able to hit them all :) Thank, Kel!
For more info on Kelly and her Blog visit HERE!

I have some hopeful news to share and ask for your prayers. Michael has interviewed this morning with 2 companies for what I call "real jobs". Not an interim position but a career opportunity. He has started to work with a recruiter and this guy is motivated! Michael connected with the recruiter last week and within just a day or so, he called Michael to let him know he had lined up these 2 interviews for him! That's HUGE! So, please pray that God will speak through Michael. He is beginning to get "cabin fever" but continues to have a positive and upbeat spirit!

Cute Story about my Hubby the Homemaker: He has become the "Master of the Grocery Store" at our house! He religiously gathers coupons (saved for him by my Mom-she gets the Houston Chronicle Paper and we dont) and clips them. Then he organizes them and plans a grocery trip! We have an awesome grocery store chain here named HEB. They offer great meal deals & we love them too b/c they carry Cajun Power Products, which are made by dear friends of ours from Abbeville, LA!

Soooo......Yesterday, my hubby called me on his way home from our fave grocery store and super excitedly he said, "Guess how much I saved in Coupons?" He is precious! Seriously, if I could support us financially, he'd be an excellent stay-at-home Dad. The dogs love having him around and the house is a much better place to live b/c he's there to take care of it! I love coming home to him and hearing about his day. It used to be that I was home an hour to an hour and a half before him and then we were rushing out the door to a ministry commitment almost every night. So, it's nice to see his smiling face as soon as I walk in the door...:)

Looking forward to a great weekend! We are in our softball tourney this weekend & we are ready to go! Ill take come pics and blog about it next week. I also have a few Mary Kay (MK) appointments that I'm looking forward to having! I love MK! :)

Enjoy your weekend...A Lot! :)
Hugs!

Cinderella Does Not Live Here

2009-06-04T13:40:00.001-05:00

**please start here: I hesitate to even BLOG this b/c I know how chatter starts. This blog is me being vulnerable and transparent. If you can't handle that and will feel the need to make your own assumptions, or spread rumors, then do us both a favor and close out of this page and return on another day when we're talking about hair color and make up.
My intention is to get this out there for others who may be struggling with fairy tales that aren't real...Life Happens. This is not meant to be used as fuel for the Gossip Barn. Please read it with that in mind.**

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I am amazed at how God shows us little road signs that lead us to where He aims for us to grow...

There is so much going on these days outside of my "perfect dream life" box and I'm beginning to feel the strain of my own dreams, as they hold me back from really living up my reality. Recently married, I've always dreamed of this new adventure!! Lately I've realized that I wanted that adventure to be how I played it out in my head over and over as a child, teenager and young adult. I expected our life to live up to those perfect expectations-not because anyone told me they would, but just because...

A month ago Michael was laid off from his position at Schlumberger. My honest, transparent response to that was "WHAT!? US, Lord? We serve You, Love You, Honor You, Share You...This is happening to US?" God has provided, supplied and overly abundanced us in Grace, Love and Support. He has provided for our every need. The greatest struggle in this last month has been my own internal battle...

My perfect definitely did not include Michael losing his job or me being the bread winner on my skinny salary. My perfect definitely didn't include us living in an apartment with no real idea of when we'll own a house. My perfect definitely didn't include us not being in a financial place to have children. I had dreams, people...and plans! What happened to those days where all I did was walk around dreaming of what my life would look like? My dreams included financial security, 1-2 well paying careers that brought us joy and fulfillment, plenty of fun volunteer work as we served the Lord, and, of course, children galore! What I realized this morning is that I never consulted the Lord on any of that, ever! My reality is different than I ever guessed.
But you see, this is where the Lord takes the stage...He led me to a blog today that starts off like this:

I know the title of this post {The "P" Word} can make your imagination go wild since there are several not-so-nice words out there that are a "P" word. The one I'm talking about?

Perfect

I use this word almost as flippantly as I tend to use "love" and "hate". All three are words pack an emotional punch, and yet I toss them around like a verbal frisbee. The problem is that the word Perfect has haunted me most of my adult life and has me almost in tears as I type.

As I read the rest of Keri's blog, "The 'P' Word", in my quiet time today, my heart connected with hers. I felt understood for a moment. It was a spectacular to know that I wasn't alone...that some other woman gets it. Although I have not struggled with all of the same issues she has, we as women are so much the same. Now, that's not saying that there aren't people around me all day that feel the same way...it just means that no one is talking about it. At least not to me!

What Ive learned this morning is essential for my own growth, outlook and maturation! When I'm looking to fill my life with anything other than God & His Way, I'm going to be unfulfilled and disappointed. I'm going to continually feel overwhelmed when I'm not relying on His Grace and Strength, despite how STRONG and COMPETANT I feel. Ive lost sight of that just recently. I feel like Peter when Jesus ushered him onto the water. Once he was challenged by the wind he started to sink. I dont want to be a sinker. I want to be like Peter in the next line when he recognized he was sinking, he reached out to our Lord and said "Lord Save Me!" (Matthew 14:23-33).

I'm so prideful and stubborn and the Lord knows me. Im so thankful that He sent me to Keri's blog today so that I could recognize this within myself. My heart echoes her closing lines:

Yes, I am struggling today with a very Imperfect situation. I am emotional, I am trying very hard to be strong, and trying to be authentic all at the same time. But I am so incredibly thankful that I serve a Perfect God who doesn't work out of the same lexicon that I do. My Imperfect life is Perfect to God only because I am leaning wholeheartedly on Him.

Lent is Here

2009-02-25T10:30:00.002-06:00

Today is Ash Wednesday 2009. First of all, I cannot even believe that it's already this season in our Church! Really!? Where is 2009 going? The question in my family today is "So, what are YOU giving up!?" Haaaa! Haaaa! It's funny to see people's reactions to that question! Church was pretty full this morning for 6am service. I was excited and impressed!

Lent has always been one of my most DREADED times of the year...totally for selfish reasons! I LOVE FOOD! When I was a kid, I always was challenged to give up snacking or sodas...and whats crazy is that as an adult my mind automatically goes there "O! Ill give up Coke!" It's second nature to say that. I had to really search my heart for what I need to let go of. It was tough, to be honest! I thought maybe Facebook or Twitter. Then I pondered my love for TV in the evenings after work. Although those 2 examples are great for anyone who has chosen those things, I wanted something different. Being a newlywed I feel like EVERYTHING goes back that relationship---bet yall are tired of hearing about my man and me, hu? I just cant help it!!!! :) I want to OUT LOVE and OUT SERVE my norm in this Covenant Relationship. There are so many things that I could do with that. God is faithful and He will show me specifics every day, Im sure of it. This morning at church my dad said "Lent is about Easter...Lent is not about Lent." I want to really DO Lent. I want to do it right and I want to do it BIG--not out loud, big but me and God big...make sense? I want to walk the walk...I want to EXPERIENCE the Resurrection at Easter.

I know that the evil one will be on me. I'm sure I'm really attractive to him right now. I am prepared for that. He will want you too. Be on guard!

TO GOD BE THE GLORY, THE HONOR and THE PRAISE!
+Amen. LETS DO THIS!!! :)

PS- after I wrote this blog the water cooler guy came to our office, saw my ashes and said "So! What are you giving up!?" It's hilarious the attention this cross on my head gets! As people passed me in the hallway they'd look at me and say "O MAN! I forgotto go to Mass!" FUNNY!!!!!

:)

I LOVE Fridays!

2009-02-20T16:47:00.001-06:00

I look forward to Fridays all week! To me FRIDAY means a few things:
1. Date Night with Michael
2. Sleep Late on Saturday Morning
3. QT with my Pups
4. Clean Clothes!
5. Date Night with Michael....Did I mention that Already!?!?! :)

I love to lounge. I think it's a treat to do nothing and love every second of it. Truth be known, since Michael and I have gotten married we've way over committed to extras in life and we're looking at how to remedy that + still do things we love to do with people we love to do them with. We are just lonesome for each other! Hard for people to understand but we totally feel it!

So, Fridays, to us, are a special time to be together and almost catch up from the craziness of our lives. We love Jesus, we love serving Him and we love the people He's sent us to socialize with...but our Covenant needs time too!

FRIDAY, I love you...........................................so much!

I LOVE Softball!

2009-02-17T22:39:00.002-06:00

It's official....Im co-coaching a softball team....IS THAT NOT HILARIOUS!?!? Ive never played before but really...how hard can it be? :)

It's a co-ed, 18 and older, Church Softball team & we are fired up! So, for now Im reading rules, techniques and sending out team emails :) ! We're having a blast!!!!

More to come...Im sure!!!

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I LOVE My Husband!!!!

2009-02-14T15:05:00.004-06:00

Ive been holding out all month for this special day where I would honor my new husband, Michael. Many have asked me why I didn't list him as my #1 love on February first....and it's b/c I was setting aside Valentine's Day as the day I honor him! :) Michael and I met at Jenn & Scott's wedding in Breaux Bridge, LA. He went to school with Jenn in Oregon and they had always been "best friends". When I first met Jenn she would always tell me about this guy who would be at the wedding and that we would be "perfect together". I brushed it off because I wasn't looking for love. I was content and perfectly satisfied in my love affair with the Lord. I had been burned and was NOT NOT NOT looking for a man to do that again. I was a bit of a "hater" if Im being honest. I met Michael at the wedding (that's a story in itself---see our wedding website for that one www.mywedding.com/michaelandragan) and as they say, "the rest is history"! I was taken with Michael Savedra as soon as I saw him and even more as I watched him and even even even MORE as I spoke with him. There was a mystery about him and there was a strong gentleman'ness about him. He is a gentleman. He is kind, loving, masculine, strong, sensitive, logical, and most of all GODS BEST FOR ME!

We got married on Nov 1 2008 and I thought that I knew him well before we said our "I Dos" but I feel like I get to REALLY know him better every day that passes now that we are living together as husband & wife. I look into his eyes and I think "Lord, I am the bless'est woman EVER and I am so thankful!!!!!" I see Christ in him everyday in the way he loves me, serves me, takes care of me, provides for me, creates a place of safety within our relationship for my heart to dwell, laughs WITH (and at) me, prays with me & carries me.

My man is such a kid at heart! He loves video games, cartoons, super heros...IM IN LOVE!!!! He is not afraid to have a blast with life...he is mindful & extremely wise but loves to have a childlike time! His Bachelor party included a day at the Paint Ball Park....he loved it! :) Michael also is a huge animal lover like myself...He brought a dog to our little family named Sye and he loves Sye very much!!! :) He's a great dad to him & I know that it's just a training ground for our human kids one day! Michael is a true servant. He really enjoys serving people be it food, lending a helping in the yard, taking out the trash for my mom, fixing my dad's truck when it needs it...he has a servant's heart...it's BEAUTIFUL! He teaches me so much about Christ in this way.

Our first large hurdle as a married couple, hand in hand, was when my Papaw was ill and dying. Michael was completely wonderful when I realized Papaw had gone home to Jesus. I wanted to go to WV & be with my family & I never guess Michael would come with me ... we're new to TX and we dont take our jobs for granted, one day... but when he said we'd need 2 airlines tickets I jumped up and threw my arms around his neck bawling saying, THANK YOU!!! He was surprised by my response "Why wouldn't I go to support my WIFE!?" Support me he did!!!! He was extremely attentive to me, my mom, her sisters and my cousins. He was present like Id never seen him be present before. He stayed up with us for hours planning Papaw's celebration day & he never once complained. He ran errands for Papaw and the sisters. He bussed us all around and he asked over and over "how can I help?".

There are moments that God gives me to observe Michael. It's like He sets it up for me to watch so He can say "See the Gift Ive given You, in him." It never fails that I see the love in his heart shine through in his work, service and kindness toward others, daily. I am blessed with my man!!! :) Baby, You are my greatest Valentine's Day present, my favorite bday, Christmas and Easter gift too!!! You are the one my heart has longed for, for so long. Thank you for following God's plan in your life. Thank you for being my husband. I love, adore and cherish you....today & every day! +me.

Michael with his Dad (Julian) and his Mom (Maria) in Vegas.

Michael at the Star Trek Museum in Vegas November of 2007...the Happiest Face Ever!

Michael is from Oregon and loves it like I love Louisiana! His groom's cake was the OR license plate with the trees and mountains along the edges...with fresh berries! :)

Cheers to You, My Love! You're Amazing!

I LOVE my GodGirls!!!!

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I have been blessed with 2 beautiful "GodGirls", Mary Claire & Malia Therese. I love these little sweet'ums like no one else. It's a special honor to be asked to prayerfully support children as they grow up; to be a Spiritual Warrior for the families they are born into...to be aware of the Spiritual Battle that goes on for their family unit. I am excited as I watch them both grow up and learn new things, take special "steps" in their lives, and come .

One of the greatest things I can remember about Mary Claire is when I lived in LA she and I would have "dates" where she would spend the night with me at my house. Those nights were so special b/c we really were able to connect and be in love with each other. Luckily she never had to go home early due to nightmares or missing home too much....That would have been traumatic for her NeeNee :)

Malia is still so young and I only see her when I visit but she is so precious to my heart. I look forward to watching her grow up into a lovely young lady. If her big sister, Zoe, is any inclination of what kind of kid she'll be, WE'RE GOING TO HAVE A BLAST! I love Zoe just too much, too....so it's going to be a great ride! :)

I kid with their moms that when they get old enough NeeNee is going to fly those kiddos to Houston and keep them for the summer...Can you imagine?! How awesome!!! :) MC already adores her "unca Michael". She asks for him often, according to Stace. Makes me so happy. Malia is sure to love him too....It's unbelievable how easy it is to love SOMEONE ELSE'S KIDS! :)

Malia and Mary Claire: NeeNee loves you so much! I am honored to be your Godmother. I am touched by your little precious lives and I pray for the impact you will make on the world around you. You can change this wild world we live in. You can be one who find the cure for cancer or abolishes abortion forever. YOU CAN!

I love you, I adore you, I thank our Heavenly Father for you...always!

+NeeNee.

I LOVE PRESIDENT LINCOLN!

2009-02-12T12:12:00.001-06:00

In honor of President Lincoln's Bday today, I share my love of him with you. Ive always been HUGELY into Social Justice. Even as a child I remember learning about Abe Lincoln and falling in love with him b/c he freed the slaves...

Check out what the White House had to say today about Abe Lincoln

See this site for great games and puzzles for the kids...all related to Honest Abe.

Abraham Lincoln lived a great life....Click here to see more!

Abe, you inspire me to stand up for those who cannot stand up for themselves...

I LOVE YOU! :)

I LOVE Sisters!

2009-02-11T14:38:00.001-06:00

Im am so blessed! Truly! I have the greatest group of sisters in my life...old, new and more to come, I'm sure! :) (God's just faithful like that!)

There is a tight knit group of us who love each other so well (Tula, Ali, Stacey, Kessie & Caree..O! & ME!) It's an unbelievable bond that crosses state lines, cultures, vocations, likes, dislikes...it's one in a million. There's nothing like a sister.

growing up without any blood sisters I didnt know what I had missed out on. I was a pre-teen when I had my first "Sister Experience" with Susanna Summers (now Susanna V.). I felt so bonded to her. I felt as though she knew my inner most fears, thoughts and loves! That was such a magnificent discovery...someone, other than my mom and dad, that I felt I could be 100% legit with...without judgment. Sue held me accountable, loved me well and we played HARD! It was life giving, uplifting and most of all Jesus centered! She set the way for me to understand and know what sisterhood truly was.

Over the years God has blessed me with girls, ladies and now, women who have walked that same walk with me that Susanna did. In college my best friend was Aimee Verret (now Landreneau). What I remember most about that friendship was that we laughed A LOT & we sang a lot! :) It was a joyful time in my life that Ill never forget or be able to replace. Aimee was the organized one with a knack for planning and getting life lined up...I on the other hand have always been more spontaneous and disorganized. She was a precursor to the next season of my life in Youth ministry where her traits were needed just as much as mine :).
I must have had a thing for ladies named Aimee b/c my next best friend was Aimee Broussard (now Arceneaux). She and I were 2 peas in a pod! We did ministry together...and I cannot even tell you how we met...It just seems like she was in my life forever! We were in each other's lives during joyful and painful times, as well. There were many many times that Id have crumbled had it not been for Aimee's faithfulness to our sisterhood! I thank God for that season of my life as well.
Being friends with Aimee introduced Tula to my life...and she has been my sister for 5 years and it feels like Ive known her since I was a kid...Probably b/c we've "grown up" so much together in Spiritual Ways. Tula came into my life right after a HUGE break up and my heart needed a sister, and I didnt even know it. God is faithful...that's all there is to that. Tula and I both live in Houston now and that's been great...having someone who knows me so well living, literally, on the other side of the apartment complex. She was here with me through my engagement and wedding preperation.

I have many other sisters...like the ones Ive named already in my opening statement. There are many little sisters that Ive received as awesome gifts through my times in ministry. Id never give those hearts back! :) I have learned so much from these special ladies! Ive also got older sisters who have led me, taught me and carried me in prayer over the years. I remember being in prayer group back in high school and learning that Titus 2 in the Bible was about the "older teaching the younger" from Aunt Donna and Aunt Genie. They, and many others, have been that Scripture to me. I have learned so much about being a woman, a wife and a sister by their examples & words. THANKFUL!!! :)

As we grow up, we change. As we grow older, we mature. I have been so blessed to have women in my life who have been a part of my life every step of the way. God is BEYOND faithful in His placement of women in my life who have been PERFECT for my season of life. I pray that I can be a sister to many....I am blessed!

*Thank you Jesus for all my sisters...past, present, future, big, little and all! :) I am so thankful for these women and the gifts they are to me and the enrichment they bring to my life!* ;)

I LOVE Ministry!

2009-02-09T09:13:00.001-06:00

Last Night was my first SWING back in Youth Ministry since leaving Lafayette a year and a half ago! Many have asked me "why?". Answer: Ive been in mourning...I still am a bit, but Im trying to move forward--

Yesterday was an insane ministry day--full! full! full! It ended with a Girls Group with high school teens. Our theme was focused on "You ARE Enough". We used a drama to a song by Bethany Dillon, "Beautiful". We had a teen testimony and some great sharing time! The night was God's...and totally special. They where willing to share the areas of their lives where they have felt/do feel like they lack and don't feel like they are enough...

What SHOCKED ME is that their situations were almost all the same, but in their own families and school sport events. I was reminded of being a teen and wanting my parents' approval and for them to be proud of me...not always feeling like I was successful. I was transported to different situations and conversations with my parents where I felt like I was not enough. After all these years, it was like I was 16 again...sitting and listening to these girls. They all long for the same thing: LOVE!!!!! Which "duh!" but really....LOVE really MAKES THE WORLD GO AROUND !!!!

The ladies reminded me of why I love ministry so much! Their fire to know more, see God and walk in His way was inspiring. The bigger picture of this blog is about the Lord renewing my spirit as I walk back into this part of my heart that I love so much, but haven't been ready to be a part of until now. I'm interested to see what God does. I wait expectantly, excited and hopeful.

I went from working a career that I believed in so much to one that I sometimes dread going to or thinking about. Now, please don't get me wrong...teen ministry has not always been peachy or easy. In fact, it never was! BUT it has always filled my cup & heart full of so much joy faith in the Lord that I never never never once struggled with wanting to do anything else. When I knew the Lord was moving me into a new season away from ministry I was ok with it b/c I knew that I had to start over in new ways in order to begin this new chapter of my life. I also remember sitting in church for 4-5 months crying every Sunday b/c I didnt know ANY OTHER WAY to serve God. I felt so out of place and so lonely for what was familiar. Youth Ministry was all Id ever done, really.
In this time since Ive moved to TX, up until now, Ive seen other gifts that I have that God can use in other ministries. It has been eye opening and affirming from the Lord!

The Lord's closing challenge to the girls was this: begin your day with "this is the day the Lord has made, let us celebrate and be glad!" :)
This morning, the Lord continued to bless me as I received this WAKE UP text message from one of the teens from last night's group:
"This is the day the Lord has made. Let us rejoice and be glad in it. Going into the world today and no matter what it says I know that I am enough...beautiful gift!"

What a blessing to be back in the saddle again, serving the Lord, in this wonderful way!

I LOVE Coffee With Jesus!

2009-02-08T10:23:00.005-06:00

Every Sunday a group of my friends gather at our apartment for "Coffee with Jesus". We go over the readings for the day, share a meal together & enjoy the blessings of fellowship...sometimes ! It has truly been a wonderful commitment for Michael & me.
I feel like I encounter Jesus in a new way every Sunday morning. We all share our hearts in our own ways and we allow the Lord to speak to us. A great family is forming and it is very exciting to see God move.
Our group consists of Drew, Tanya, Ada & Baby D Hisey, Sarah Currier, Tula Karras & of course Michael & me. Here's our group pic: (they wanted Tula and I to be in the pic so they are holding up a picture of us...how sweet!!!!)

...side note:

How much do you know about the season of Lent? We have created a short quiz about some Lenten facts, and we hope that you'll participate and test your knowledge by taking it.

We will be publishing the results of this quiz, as well as the correct answers, on our blog on Ash Wednesday.

Take the quiz now!

And don't forget to visit our Lent section for any Lenten resources you need.

Thank you from Aquinas and More!

I LOVE my CAJUN POWER family!

2009-02-05T18:32:00.007-06:00

Day 5: I LOVE the Thomas'!

There are special people in your life that just bless you! The Thomas' are one of those families...We have known each other for quite some time (since college--back in the day!!!) but didn't quite hit it off...well, Coby & I did but Kessie: NOT SO MUCH! :) If you've been around us for a little bit you've heard our special testimony. God is so amazing!
He has reconciled our 2 hearts to each other in a most powerful way. We are really aware of how God has set this sisterhood, and now their family, up and in motion for His GLORY!

What I love so much about this family is that they are Louisiana THROUGH & THROUGH. They BLEED their family company, Cajun Power. When I think about Louisiana and CULTURE I think of these people. I just absolutely giggle OUT LOUD when I think of how precious and Cajun they are! It really does my heart good!

When Im lonely for Louisiana I go to the cook something Cajun! Last weekend I was at the local grocery store and called Kessie & Coby instantly when I saw this:

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was thrilled!!! I was so happy to be that close to my friends' hearts! I must have sounded like a crazy lady to those around me in the grocery, but I don't even care!!! :) Brought JOY to my heart!!!

I have the precious treasure of being Malia's Godmother (The Thomas' youngest child)...and although she is "mine" I feel like they all are! What I love about each Thomas:

Coby-He's a man of the Lord and he is a strong pillar for my sister, Kessie. He is an amazing father & I honor that so much about him. I love that he lets those kids and Kessie know that he loves them and that he is God's. It brings great peace to my heart to have them all so in love with Poppie!

Kessie-I have such an awareness of our commitment to each other! We can live hours and miles away from each other but I am 100% confidant that her love for me, as her sister, is pure and good. We are a lot alike in many ways and different in many others...all are special to me. When I dont see her, I miss her. I look forward to hugging her & laughing with her!!! Some of my favorite wedding prep memories have Kess in them! What a blessing that God brought us together at this time in our lives! When Im pregnant, Ill call you for advice! DONT YOU WORRY! :)

Grant Pio-He is such a SPECIAL young man! I am so excited to have witnessed him grow up over the past couple of years. He is a great big brother to his siblings and such a hard worker with his school! He is respectful of his mommie and poppie & I just LOVE THAT! I love that he calls me Aunt Ragan and calls my husband, Uncle Michael and has now gotten his whole family doing so!!! :)

Zoe Marie-She is beautiful! Her little spirit is joyful and o so girlie! When Id go to visit Id always ask to look at her hair barettes and ask to borrow one that matched my outfit...WHAT A COLLECTION! Zoe is a fantastic big sister and is really super smart! She has a kind heart and looks forward to playinng Mass with us when I come over! :)

Micah-JOY! JOY! JOY! Micah is the only BLONDE Thomas. I love his hair color and his HUGE smile! He is a great outpouring of the Lord's joy! As he grows up I look forward to watching his little journey.

Malia-Well, of course I love her b/c she's my Goddaughter...!!! Because she's so young and I moved right after she was born, we dont get to hang out as much as Id like but Im looking forward to summer at NeeNee's & Uncle Michael's! :) I just love her to pieces!!!!!!!!!

Thomas' I love you....You make my heart smile! I look forward to many family outings and many girls weekends! :)
...and of course many Cajun Power meals...

I Love My Pets!

2009-02-04T20:15:00.000-06:00

Day 4: Sofie & Sye!

I've always been a lover of animals. Ive had a pet for as long as I can remember. My first dog was named Bridget & I got her when I was pretty young. She was a mixed mutt and really owned my heart. She only had one eye b/c she was hit by a car and her eye didn't survive the impact. Although impaired, she never acted handicapped in the least. I have fond memories of Bridget and me playing in the yard, racing each other up the stairs at my Papaw's house, and my all time favorite: me dressing her up in baby doll clothes. She hated it...I LOVED IT! She was a trooper & made me so happy!

Once my family moved to Houston, from West Virginia, we got a black lab mix named Shayo (shy'-o). He was so laid back and chill. We were buds, for sure. Bridget was always my fave b/c I had her the longest but Shayo was really special to me b/c he was our first dog as a family. After a couple of years Bridget was hit by a car and died. We then, after our mourning time, wanted Shayo to have a companion to play with...so we got Tisza. (both Shayo and Tisza were named after rivers in Hungary...my dad' heritage is Hungarian.)

Tisza was my sister! She was rambunctious, wild, & full of energy. We would roll on the ground, run around and dance too! She was me, in a dog form. :) She was so loyal and precious to my heart. I've always loved animals but I've always especially loved dogs.

Once I moved out I wanted a pet to love, cuddle with and play with. So my first dog was "Alabaster", a mix of jack russel terrier & something else... He was named after the alabaster jar in Scripture that was broken at the feet of Jesus (the Gospel reading here). He came to church with me (I was working as a full time youth minister at St Elizabeth Seton Catholic Church, Lafayette LA) and was really a part of my life in every way. He was older when I got him, less than a year but not 6 weeks like most pups when they're adopted--so he was already in his habits and his ways. He was a cuddler, which I loved. Growing up I wasnt allowed to have my dogs sleep with me b/c they were primarily outside dogs. Alabaster was inside b/c I lived in an apartment...no yard.
Once night i took him to the bathroom outside without a leash on. I did that a lot, and there had never been a problem but one evening he ran into a busy street, didnt come with I called his name & he got hit by a car...he flew across the highway and I was there, watching it all and screaming!!! I immediately decided no more dogs!!! I was heart broken and missed him so much! RIP Alabaster!

Although I said no more dogs, I still wanted a new pet! That's when my love for cats began. My first cat was named Eve. Then I got Max (named for Maximilian Kolbe)...together, they produced 3 kittens. I kept 1 or 2...I cannot remember. My cat collection quickly grew...at one point my roommate and I had almost 10 cats...I was picking up strays, taking them to the vet, keeping them in my house....wow! That brought on a bad situation with fleas...country fields + cats = BAD COMBO!!!!
Of all those cats, Max has always been my favorite. When I moved to Texas a year and a half ago, Max and Eli (my 2 last cats) needed homes. Finally God provided a great family for both. I still miss Max...if I had anything to change, I would never have given Max away...he has my heart! :)

At some point in LA, I got Sofie...my lab mix. She is the closest thing to a daughter Ive ever had. She is so precious, so protective, so loving and so HONKIN' ADORABLE!!!! She has "yoda" ears. And is FULL of PERSONALITY!!! She loves life...and her brother, Sye. Sye is the dog that Michael brought to our lives. He is a beagle. He's little in stature but BIG in play!!!
Sofie and Sye LOVE LOVE LOVE to go to the dog park and play and run and swim. Sye will chase any dog-especially those that are bigger than him-that will let him and Sofie just wants to play fetch. Michael and I throw the ball to her in the pond and she RACES & jumps in the pond...she LOVES to swim & she loves to play!

I love these precious babies!!!! SOOOOO MUCH! :)

I LOVE Weight Watchers!

2009-02-03T17:46:00.002-06:00

Over the years Ive tried every weight loss plan, diet pill, and meal plan out there. I've tried healthy and safe ways along with not so safe and definitely not healthy ways to lose weight. Weight Watchers (WW) has been the only program that has made sense to me and worked for me.

It's really about life changes not gimmicks or crazy pills. It's what so many women, and men, have lost weight with, gotten healthy and started new lives with. It's straight forward and encourages healthy changes. Im all about it!!!

Michael & I are both on the program now and it's amazing how many people we know that are on WW. Seems that people are closet WW members and then once you make the connection it's an awesome bond. I find myself speaking "points" with everyone I discuss food with...it's humorous!!!

Im thankful for the support WW online gives me. Ive joined a couple groups that are great sources of encouragement!

WW member for life!!! :)

I love my Family!

2009-02-02T22:58:00.007-06:00

My family has always been my number one. It's always been just the three of us. We've grown so much as a unit that I cannot even imagine what life would be like without them. I am honored and I am blessed to love, know and be a part of them. Here are excerpts from our wedding website that I wrote to my parents...this expresses my heart in such a real way:

To My Dad: This is a wild time in our lives, isn't it Dad? We're all 3 back in the same town again, which is cool...but this time all as adults. I think it's quite a special time and I'm very thankful for it!

Over the past 26 years you have played many roles in my life: Teacher, Protector, Provider, Disciplinarian, Motivator...all the while, being my DAD. You've always been the one that I knew would know the answer, set me straight, and allow me to grow and learn from each situation. Thank you for being a constant source of logic when I was ONLY emotion. Thank you for being the man of the house and always placing me and mom before yourself. Your example has instilled in me very high standards for what I look for in men. Michael is so much like you. Sometimes I'm shocked by his words...because I can almost hear YOUR VOICE coming through.

Your leadership spiritually is the most valuable gift you have offered me. I've always been so proud of who you are...even when I didn't agree with you. It seems that we are so different, but in ways that count, I believe we're very much alike...I just like more color, glitter and sequins! =) As I get older I see that you and I are truly cut from the same fabric & for that, I'm thankful and honored. People tell me, so often, how blessed I am to have you and Mom. They're right!

Thank you for giving Michael your permission to marry me. He truly brings JOY to my heart!!! Thank you for how you have really taken him and invested in him. You and he are the 2 most important men in my life. You loving Michael means a lot to me. Thank you for accepting him so easily into our family.

I love you.............forever, Dad!
+Rae-bird.

To My Mom: My mom has always been my best friend. She has always been someone I was proud to introduce to people. She is a woman of great love and compassion. Most of my best qualities, I learned from her. When it comes to laughing, crying, singing and talking, she and I are almost identical.

Since moving to Houston there have been instances where people have approached me thinking I was my mom. It's been crazy! When I hear people talking about her I hear words like, "joyful, prayerful, holy, funny, good listener, gentle, fun, beautiful, empathetic, talented and caring"...the list goes on and on.

I am a better woman because God deemed me worthy of such an amazing mother! She has taught me how to love, listen and be who GOD has created me to be.

Thank you, Momma for your love for me and your willingness to show me LOVE. You are an amazing example of Christ to me.

I love you.
+Rae*

The Lord has honored my greatly by putting me into this family...I am blessed!

Share with me, in your comments, why you LOVE your family.

+Ragan.

"I LOVE" February!

2009-02-01T23:27:00.001-06:00

I've decided that since February is dedicated to LOVE
(Valentine's Day) I will share one thing each day that I LOVE. There are 3 types of LOVE (agape, eros, and philos) and all will be touched on over the next month. There will be no particular order but there are specific things or people that I have designated for certain days...you'll see!

I hope this exercise will not only shed light on who I am and what/who
I value, but will also allow the Lord to SHINE!!! Enjoy!

Day 1: I LOVE COCA-COLA!!!!

Don't laugh! This is serious! :)

My precious husband voted this to be my "day one" entry...When others notice, you know it's bad! Over the past 10 or so years I have truly grown to "love" Coke. My favorite drink in the world is Coke-a canned Coke that is so cold it BURNS as it goes down on your throat! YUMMMMM!!!

Ive tried to repent and change my ways by turning to Diet Coke, Coke Zero, Diet Coke with Splenda, Coke with Lime...even Sprite. I honestly have tried to change my habit and drink water and Im tellin ya....IT'S HONKIN' GROSS! Some people can drink water and be completely satisfied...not me. Im working on it and I want to be "free" but GOLL-EE!!!

I've lowered my Coke intake since starting Weight Watchers but sometimes I just crave a Coke. I am an official "Coke-a-holic". *Sigh...!*

Women Are Beautiful!!!

2009-01-17T16:20:00.002-06:00

Hey Lovely Ladies!

For years I've felt the Lord tugging on my heart to begin a ministry that is dedicated to reminding women of how special they are. I've always been touched by the number of ladies who don't believe they're beautiful, lovely or worthy of love. In my experience with teens I've learned that women of all ages need to be reminded of their inner and outer beauty. No one is an exception to this "rule". Don't you appreciate it when someone compliments generous characteristics that they see in you or notices that you're fixing our hair a new way? Sure! We all do! I love when my husband blesses me with a compliment. I appreciate and savor each one!

I believe I've found a conduit that will begin this ministry I've felt so drawn to...definitely in a different way than I expected...but I'm so excited!!!!! I am starting a Mary Kay business. As I begin this new endeavor my mind is directed to the many women that we meet every day. That lady at the grocery store, your teller at the bank, the woman walking her dog at the park---they are all so beautiful! We are all shaped differently, with individual characteristics that make us lovely and it's time to call each other out for what we truly are...BEAUTIFUL and UNIQUE!!!

As I begin my Mary Kay Business I'm going to need women to volunteer their lovely faces so I can practice facials--would you be willing to be a "guinea princess" for me?

It would be so much fun to meet up with you and a few of your girlfriends and have a spa night or for a mother/daughter night with you and your darling daughter(s) or nieces or granddaughters! Another great idea is for you to host a make over party for some of your sisters or co-workers!

Or if you live far away from me, like my sister-in-law in Oregon or my Aunts in South Carolina, you can always request some samples of your favorite Mary Kary products and try 'em out at home, let me know how you like 'em and if they work well with your skin type. If you don't even know where to start but you know you need a good cleanser, exfoliant or moisturizer, go to my website, www.marykay.com/ragan and see all we have to offer! You can also email me, here, to get more information.

Mary Kay is more than make up and skin care. We have a great line of perfumes, colognes and a great line for men--and everyone loves a good smellin' gentleman! :)
Let me know if I can help you get a party organized or send some samples your way. Thanks so much for your help with this new ministry/business! I look forward to hearing from you soon!

+Ragan!
832-758-1929
www.marykay.com/ragan
raganbvm@gmail.com

King Sye

2009-01-07T22:55:00.001-06:00

King Sye
Originally uploaded by raganbvm

Happy New Year!

+Ragan.

It is Accomplished...11:20am CST

2008-12-13T12:00:00.002-06:00

One of my favorite parts of this movie, "Passion of the Christ" is when Jesus is on the cross & He looks down at the world and says "It is Accomplished"...My other favorite part is when Jesus is struggling, falling as he gets to Calvary & He sees Mary and to her He says, "See? I make all things new!" In the face of beatings, pain, suffering, Jesus knew the real deal....a VICTORY was about to take place...and not just any VICTORY but THE Victory!!!!!!!!

Today, for my Papaw, It is Accomplished. He has fought the good fight, run the race til the end and now...he has the VICTORY of seeing Jesus, face to face. Today, too Jesus continues to make all things new! Papaw begins a NEW LIFE in Christ today...

My mom called me this morning at about 10:30am CST and gave me the gift of being on the speaker phone for his last 50 minutes of life. I was able to hear him breathe, sing to him, pray over him, join my family in prayer and finally, hear his last breath.
These are moments Ill never forget...

God's grace is sufficient. My heart is sad...that sounds so simple...it's anything but simple! My heart is crushed...my soul is celebrating for my Papaw!!!!! He is a man who loved so well while here on Earth. He gave you his time-not something people seem to have too much of these days. He was a teacher at heart-he taught me so many things, he loved to tell stories of his childhood & adventures, he was a man of faith although he wasn't an "ALLELUIA" kinda man, he knows Jesus. He loved loved loved to sing, dance, play cards, watch tv, travel...Papaw was a John 10:10 man....He lived life ABUNDANTLY!!!

Today he has fulfilled his purpose and gone to see Jesus...please pray for his soul. Papaw, please pray for us!

If we look at ourselves not as bodies with souls, but souls with bodies, this all makes sense. If we see ourselves as souls come to Earth for a mission who will return to their rightful home, HEAVEN, this all makes perfect sense. We must go home...when the mission is accomplished!

For me, it's hard to imagine a world without my Papaw. It's nearly impossible to see how the planet will be as bright as it was with him. No one will ever replace him in our lives but the beautiful thing is that in Spiritual Reality, he is not dead....he with ALIVE, with Jesus, & he will be praying for us...and will be with us and will be ready to welcome us when our mission is accomplished, for the Lord!

Your commitment to our family over these last few days is astounding to us. Thank you for your emails, texts, calls and voice mails. Please don't stop praying for us now. Good news is, Papaw is now praying for us too....in a new way!

I love you. My family loves you. Papaw loves you.

God Bless You. God reward You. St. Lucy, Pray for Us!!!

Always Papaw's Wadie,
+Ragan

Special Moment with Papaw...

2008-12-12T20:58:00.002-06:00

Good Evening, All! :)

Today has been slow in the way of updates b/c there has been little to share. He is being made comfortable in the hospital. People keep walking into his room & commenting on how strong he is being...my response to that is, "Of course, yall! He's my Papaw!!!!!" :)

I called this evening and he is resting well. He told his daughter, Diana (middle daughter of the 3) that he wants to tell everyone "Good Bye". She gave him the phone and I told him about today being the Feast of Our Lady of Guadalupe & told him how much Our Lady loves him & how she is looking out for him and interceding on his behalf to Jesus!
I then told him that I love him, and then proceeded to give him permission to go to Jesus, when it's time. (I felt this to be really important being that I'm not there to physically hold him and encourage him or pray over him.) I told him that he is going to be close to all of us in a brand new way! I told him that he will be with Jesus, Our Lady, Nonnie (his 1st wife & the daughter's mom), his parents...everyone he loves that is in Heaven.
I then told him Id never forget our special moments together, that he'd always be my hero and in my heart!!!

Before we got off the phone he said "Night, Night Wadie"...
I responded, "Night, Night Papaw! I love you! Ill always love you and Ill never forget our memories!"
What a special moment....one I'll add to my long list of special times with him.

Please pray that God will provide Papaw with the Sacraments...He's already received the Anointing of the Sick but I am hoping he can have an opportunity to go to Reconciliation or receive the Eucharist....or BOTH!!!!!!!!!!

Our Lady of Guadalupe, Pray for Us!

God Bless You!
+Ragan.

2008-12-12T20:25:00.001-06:00

Good Morning Friends! Happy Feast of Our Lady of Guadalupe!!!!! Thank you Blessed Mother for ushering us to Jesus, daily. Thank you for the HOPE & WITNESS you bring to our lives. Thank you for the prayers you offer to Jesus on our behalf!

Last night was quite a hard one for my Precious Papaw, medically. Emotionally, he was probably very happy as he had all three of his girls with him. There was a Mass offered up for him yesterday evening (6:30pm CST) and he was so thankful for that (Thank you, Fr Harold!!). He kept asking, "What time is it?" He wanted to be in prayer with the congregation who was praying for him at that Mass. Finally, when it was time for Mass he said "Praise God!". Every prayer, Mass, offering, sacrifice is important to him and is noticed. He knows he has a spiritual family who are walking this with him, via prayer & Sacrament. He is blessed by your faithfulness and is inspired by your love. Thank you!
Spiritual Family is an odd concept for many, right? Some dont get it. Some dont understand...that's b/c they have not experienced it. For my birth family, they get it, although some have never had it. They get it b/c they have seen the fruit of your love for us over the process of our lives and conversions. We are so blessed to have the family that we do, in you. Jesus uses you in our lives so often. Thank you!
We truly feel like 1 Corinthians 12:12-26 is being played out here...("And if one member suffers, all the members suffer with it; if one member is honored, all the members rejoice with it.")

...

Papaw is ready to go to Jesus. The last email I sent out was so well received...it was like a PEP RALLY for PAPAW and I could literally FEEL the spirit, "GO PAPAW GO!!!!!" The new process we hoped would work, did in many ways but not ultimately in the way we all wanted. It will not prolong his life. It did, though, allow him to breathe easier and we are grateful for that.

This morning my mom called and said that the doctors are telling them that within the next 24 hours Papaw will go to Jesus. Well, they didnt say that ... they said, he'll die. We say "go to see Jesus". My mom has told me if you want to come here while he's still alive, dont delay.
A group of us attended a "prayer meeting" last night with Beth Moore and I was asking the Lord to show me what was best-do I go? do I wait? I didnt want to be the ONLY ONE NOT THERE but in my heart of hearts, I dont feel like I need to be there. I know who I am to my Papaw and he knows who he is to me. We're very close and aware of each other's role in our lives. Ive decided not to travel to SC prior to his passing. I am with him in prayer. I am with him in his heart and he is with me, as well.

When he does pass away, I will travel to West Virginia (where we're all from) and we will bury him there, next to my mom's mom, my Nonnie, who died when I was 1 year old, or so. That will be so amazing!...to go HOME to West Virginia, see the house we all used to live in there, visit with my Grandma Borbas (Dad's Mom), see my cousins...all to celebrate my Papaw's AWESOME, full, loving, life.......and to honor him before those that will come. Ive asked to speak at the Mass or wake...whatever is best. Ive been able to share my heart with you but I want everyone to know what God has done through this man. I want everyone to know how awesome God's love is!!!!!!!

People ask me, "who gave you the gift of music?". The answer "my Papaw and Mom combined." We will honor him in song and every time I hear "Yellow Rose in Texas" or "Deep In the Heart of Texas" or "Amazing Grace" I will "hear" my Papaw......

Our lives are FULL of blessings! This man, has been one of my BIGGEST!!!! Thank you Jesus. +Amen.

When Papaw goes to Jesus, I will email you. Until then, please be in prayer, asking the Lord for a peaceful taking.

I LOVE YOU, I THANK YOU, I HONOR YOU before God for your faithfulness to my family during this journey.
God Bless YOU!
+Ragan

New Procedure Brings Hope!!!!

2008-12-11T17:38:00.001-06:00

Mom just called so I could talk with Papaw for a minute. He said "I'm fighting the good fight over here, Wadie!". We exchanged love and then we handed the phone off to mom...Again, I was able to tell him that I love him and that he is my heart and is always in my heart. Doubt he understood me as I was a blubbering MESS, but I hope he gets the idea.

The nurse piped in and said "We're not giving up on you Mr. Jones (Herbert Gene Jones is his Birth Name, PAPAW is his rock star name given to him by yours truly!) Ive seen people worse off then you make a full recovery!"
ALLELUIA!!!!! ALLELUIA!!!!!!!!
is my response to that!!!!

Then the heart doc came in and said they are trying something else that will work to remove the fluid from his heart and they are also giving him some morphine to open up his bronchial tubes to help him to breathe. So...........................Thank you Jesus for HOPE!

Thank you for being so patient with all my emails....Thank you!

Update on Papaw...3:41pm

2008-12-11T17:36:00.000-06:00

Mom just called. She said she believes his body is slowly shutting down. His sugar levels are high yet he has had no sugar or food, really.

She used the words "Ragan, he is dying!"

Please pray for this to be a special time for these 3 daughters and their Daddy. Thank you.

Update on Papaw...2:56pm

2008-12-11T17:35:00.000-06:00

Hey Yall! I hope your day is going well!!

My mom has arrived in Myrtle Beach, SC safely (Praise God!) and has been in to see my Papaw, her Daddy. She had to walk outside the room to take a break and catch her breath for a second. Her text message reads,
"Daddy concentrates on every breath. Is so hard to watch. God's Grace is being received by this broken heart..".

She said his arms are nothing but red blood bruises and that his blood levels are higher than they ever have been, per the nurses. The doctors are saying that they want to do one more procedure in an effort to reduce the level of fluid around his heart and in his lungs. That would enable him to breathe easier. That would be a blessing in itself.

Mom's prayer request for me to send to you: That God would be gentle with Sweet Papaw & that his suffering be minimal. She thanks you so much for your prayers and is so appreciative to you! Our prayer is that his suffering would be united with the cross...he cannot make that offering on his own...we go on his behalf.

My prayer is for my Aunts & Mom...That they can be strong for Papaw and give him whatever permission he may need to go to Jesus. I also pray that we back home can be a source of LIFE and HOPE for them.

Thank you for your prayers...as we enter this Hour of Divine Mercy, we offer our prayers to Jesus for Papaw. You are a blessing to us, as a family and to me, as a friend. Thank you!

God Bless You!
+Ragan.

Picture of My Precious!!!

2008-12-11T17:31:00.002-06:00

Thought you may enjoy a special picture of my Papaw. This pic was taken at our November Wedding. 2 of my favorite men...all it's needs to be perfect is my dad! Ill "photo shop" him in later! :)

Have a blessed day! Thank you for journeying with us.

Update on Papaw...10:51pm

2008-12-10T23:09:00.000-06:00

*ive sent out 3 emails, the 3rd is below. They are in regard to my Papaw, Hebert Gene Jones. He is 80 years old & has had a rough week in the hospital. I post these b/c he needs your prayers....we all do.

Night, Yall!

Tonight has been a bit of an emotional whirlwind. My sweet Papaw was moved into a room that is for those who are not critical but that are not fair, either. He is still really struggling to take breaths. He is tired.

My mom has decided to travel there tomorrow morning to be of assistance to her sisters as well as to, of course, be with her Daddy. He nodded up and down in a "yes" direction when her sister told him "daddy, Gina's coming to see you, ok!?" That was really all she needed to hear...and her decision was made.

Being near my family and not removed (like when I was at work earlier today) makes this all such an even bigger reality. My Papaw is really sick...He is really ill and this is happening to MY PAPAW! I cannot believe it. Its something you know is inevitable (death) but you never really think of how or when or under what circumstances it'll come in. Now, I am very much aware that God can do anything....a miracle is nothing for God...He is a BONA FIDE MIRACLE WORKER, the best there is. We'll take it! We receive it, if it's God's plan....heck yea!!!

Ive never lost anyone before that I loved like this. When my brother passed via miscarriage it was so sad, but it was different. Id never hugged, kissed, played with or loved on Caleb. I've simply adored this man my entire life...lived to be with him, cuddle with him, dance with him, sing with him, play cards with him....Ive done LIFE with him...and to lose him seems too unbearable. SEEMS too awful to ever be able to deal with.
Im his GRANDdaughter...I cannot imagine what his DAUGHTERS are feeling. They are scared. My mom is verbalizing which is good...she is sharing her feelings and her heart...I'm happy to listen. Her heart is breaking...that's inevitable and it's extremely obvious. Tonight she said "I cannot imagine life without him...I just cant imagine it." She wants to be strong for her sisters who have been his primary care takers over these months. She is totally relying on the Lord here...on Him alone!

I was able to call him tonight in his room. He has a CPACK machine on his face which gives him oxygen to help him breathe so I told my Aunt Dee to tell him, "not to respond to me...just listen." I told him "I love you Papaw. I love you so much! I want you to know how much I love you and I want you to be at peace...i want you to be free! You're so good, Papaw I love you.........I love you so much!"
He responded, "Ok, Wadie, I love you!" Although he wasnt supposed to answer me he did...that's so like him....doing whatever he can, even if it's not best for himself, to tell ME he loves me. He's sooo good, Lord. Be gentle with him!

Thank you for your commitment to prayer for our family. Please pray for my mom's safe travels and her time with her Daddy. This could very well be the last time they're together on Earth. I pray for peace for all of us. I pray for peace mainly between Papaw & the Lord + a miracle, if God wants....we'll take it!!!!!

I love you so much!
+Ragan

Finally....Mrs. Michael Savedra!

2008-11-13T02:17:00.002-06:00

WHEW!!! HUGE EXHALE! Thats all I can really express....followed with a huge Texas YEE-HAW!!!!!!!

On November 1, 2008 I married the man of my heart, Michael Savedra! We have traveled through such a special engagement season & we are so excited and thankful to be embarking on this new time in each of our lives. We have taken on the mantra of "two become one"...

Tula has asked me what married life brings...of course it brings the normal things ppl think of like same household, sex, sharing money responsibilities...but most of all I have found such freedom & security in our Sacrament and commitment. Loving Michael has always been simple and easy. Being married to him is so natural. I want to love him better, serve him more, lay down beside him at night and anoint him with love, admiration and prayer. Im honored to be Mrs. Michael Savedra.

God has walked with us so faithfully. He has been nothing but merciful. Im humbled by the fact that my God has found me worthy such a man, as my husband. When I met Michael I was not looking for him. I was actually at a place in my life where I had discovered the peace in simply being God's own. So, when I looked over my shoulder that mid-October evening, I was shocked when my heart went "pitter-patter"!! I actually giggled out loud and I remember looking up to Heaven and shaking my head slightly, thinking, "You've gotta be kidding me!".
I had been hurt so many times before that I would have rather been a single, unmarried missionary for the Lord than to enter into relationship with another man with the chance to have my heart broken. God took me, broken as I was, and put me back together...piece by piece, lesson by lesson -- in order to prepare me for Michael Savedra. His plan is always best! Im humbled!

Thank you for praying for us, loving us, walking with us, challenging us...We love you. I love you!
+Mrs. Michael Savedra!

Bridal Shower Extravaganza

2008-10-19T01:52:00.004-05:00

Good Morning! It's 1:52am and I am winding down from a full day! It's been awesome! Kessie, Stacey & Ali drove in from LA to attend a bridal shower for me. It has been so much fun! We went Mary Martha's house and there was pink & gold everywhere!
The theme was "Pamper the Bride" and was i ever!!! I rec'd robes, slippers, lotions, body sprays, spritzers, bath salts, blankets, spa treatments, gift certificates for massages, pjs, long johns...and the list goes on and on! It was unbelievable! I was shocked! Thank you to all who attended. It was a blessing to be with you today!

Ill post pics in the next few days after Kessie goes home and sends them to me. :)

PS--have I mentioned that I will be Mrs. Michael Savedra in LESS than 2 weeks!? RIGHT.........Im fired up!

LOVE YOU!
+Ragan "Soon to be Savedra".

It's LADIES NIGHT!!!

2008-09-19T10:20:00.006-05:00

Good Morning! Hope yall are doing well! :)

We're in Dallas, as you know if you've read the last couple blogs Ive posted, for work and it has proven to be quite a lovely week! I was extremely hesitant to travel to our regional office b/c I didn't want to leave my family (Michael, parents, pups). After being notified that they rec'd power, I was able to relax a bit and enjoy the time away. Ive definitely missed my family and home but have thoroughly enjoyed every minute of our time in Dallas! It's been a blessing in disguise.

Coming from such a strained working relationship at St Elizabeth Seton in Lafayette with my boss and some of my coworkers, I definitely appreciate a friendly, welcoming, & warm office! I feel like we are a family! We are a small group, growing all the time, though. This week I've been able to hang with my "girls" (coworkers) in a new way...a REAL non-working, just pals way! We've had meals together, Ive met their kiddos, we've shopped Dallas together, laughed alot, and even shared our hearts about relationships, faith and girl stuff! I've found sisters in other areas of my life such as ministry, parish work or mission work but never WORK WORK...like my coworkers. At Schumacher Group Ive found sisterhood, love and friendship. Everyone is caring and supportive. God has blessed me.
When I moved here I was really wounded by my emotionally abusive relationship with my boss at SES. I was scared of him. I was afraid to talk to him b/c I thought he would yell at me, threaten to write me up, degrade me or just IGNORE me all together. I have the best boss now, Dr P! He is kind, gentle, positive and uplifting. He is the best remedy for my woundedness. God definately knows what He's doing when He sets up a plan for action.

Last night my team surprised me with a GIRLS NIGHT OUT (GNO)! We were supposed to have a girls night this weekend (saturday, sept 20th) but b/c of our hurricane friend, Ike, things have been shifted around a bit. I was under the impression that we were just going postpone our GNO to Sept 27th...but last night they completely surprised me (which is hard to do!) with a night of fun at a local place called "Main Event". We bowled, played arcade games, drank yummy drinks, ate PINK cupcakes (i loved them!), and just had a ball!!!! They bought me a leopard printed crown, a hot pink boa, and a "Miss Bachelorette" pagent sash! Do they know me or what? I was in awe! I cannot believe that they took that much time to think of me! I was so touched! We'll have pics to post soon! It was really a fun night! Thanks Team!! LOVED IT!

Tula and I are headed back to Houston today and I'm pretty excited! I cant wait to kiss my puppy girl, Sofie! I cant wait to OF COURSE see that love bug man of mine!!!!! I am looking so very forward to going to UNITAS on Sunday and getting back on the wedding prep train! :) Life seems to be getting back to normal one day at a time. We are hearing of nearby neighborhoods having their power restored a little more each day! My thoughts and prayers are with those who are suffering due to Ike or Gustav. Mother Nature needs to take a break!

Look at these pictures: Hurricane Ike Damage

Also, wanted yall to see these pics of my God Babies, Mary Claire & Malia! Arent' they beautiful? They are growing so much! Im so proud and honored and humbled to love them so much and be their personal PRAYER SLAVE! :)
(**Just realized...BOTH are named after our Blessed Mother! WOW!!! BVM, usher us to Jesus!!!)
(Malia Therese)

(Mary Claire)
Aren't these kiddos just too much? Nene loves you both!!!! Im so blessed to love you!

Looking forward to the Couple's Shower in a couple weeks! YAHOO!! Ill see all my LA peeps!!! Can't wait!

LOVE YALL!
+rb

Wednesday's Blog...

2008-09-17T10:55:00.002-05:00

Ive settled in, reconnected with my lovely coworkers, had a family sized meal with them and had 2 restful nights of sleep! I am thankful and back in full swing!
I've realized how much I need people to be whole. I have always been called a "people person" but it becomes REAL when you are without them for a week or so & are reconnected with them. I find such great blessing in these women and men that I work with at Schumacher Group. The work may not always be my dream, but all in all it's about the love and the people that we serve and work with. I'm thankful to work with ppl who really care about each other and have the heart to invest in others.

Dallas is a precious place to be. We're here until Friday afternoon, at least. We will definitely go back home on Friday and then we MAY return next week if we don't have power in our office. We got word last night that our complex has had power restored as of 9pm last night. Praise the Lord! There are many still without power so please keep them in your prayers!

Tonight I think we're going bowling...that should be fun, don't-cha think? AND OF COURSE I GOTTA GO TO THE GALLERIA!!! :)
Hope yall are great! LOVING YALL IN DALLAS!

+rb

Dallas: Home Sweet Home?

2008-09-15T23:44:00.002-05:00

Tula and I have been summoned to Dallas, TX for the rest of the week in order to get some Schumacher Group work done, as we have no power in my Houston office. Eight (8) of my regions' hospitals have been affected by Hurricane Ike and we need to come together as a team and work it out!
So, here we are....and although it was hard to leave my lovies, Michael and Sofie, and wonderful parents in the heat, I rec'd a text message, not 30 minutes after we drove out of their driveway, that their power has been restored! Praise the LORD!!!! That makes leaving them much easier!!!
So, Tula and I packed up and headed north at 5pm today and have finally arrived in Dallas at our Radisson Hotel. We're thankful for the night's rest we'll receive. Our apartment complex's power has not been restored yet...we're waiting on the miracle moment!

As Tula & I traveled to Dallas, we saw utility truck after utility truck headed into the Houston area! It was relieving & hopeful to see all those professionals! At dinner, about 70 miles away from Houston we ate next to a table of approx 12 utility workers. We were able to listen as they talked to the table next to us...they were from Virginia! WOW! What a blessing! It made my heart so happy to see Americans come together to help out neighbors.

Tonight we are sleeping with A/C, using the internet, watching TV....we're feeling pretty spoiled! Im really looking forward to a Starbucks in the morning! Im also looking forward to seeing my coworkers! It should be a fun week! :) Whistle while you work.....

Off to sleepy...LOVE Y'ALL Mucho!

+rb

Alleluia Sunday!

2008-09-14T17:58:00.000-05:00

It's the Lord's Day and after much back & forth conversation we
decided to travel through the flooded streets to our church parish for
Sunday Eucharist. It was a good decision! Mass was truly a solace
time for me. It was community building to look around and see ppl who
have all endured the same storm gathered together with the Lord. Our
church didn't have A/C but no one left!

We were blessed by the Hisey family (drew, tanya, ada & baby Hisey)
with an afternoon of non-hurricane talk and great home cooking!!!!!
We loved the time out and about. Thanks y'all for your hospitality
and chat! We love you!
We've rec'd so many offers to go over to ppls houses over the past
couple days. We've felt the blessings and servant's hearts! Thank
you!!!!!

We traveled south of I-10 to our apartment complex to find a lot of
trees and billboards ripped out of the ground & thrown into the
streets or fields. We don't have electricity or water at our apts. We
have been notified by both Schumacher Group and Schlumberger that we
don't have work tomorrow. Michael's office is in the south tx city of
Rosharon which saw a lot of damage from Ike. Our Schumacher Group
office is without power in sw Houston.

Tonight we're expecting a cool front to come through which will make
sleeping much more sound and solid. Thank you Lord for Your cool
breeze! We love you!!!

+rb

A First Night's Darkness

2008-09-13T23:55:00.001-05:00

This is our first night going to bed without power. The streets are
stale. There are no cars and there is mo breeze. It's a hot Texas
night in September. Our refrigerator is thawing and we're out of ice.
We've taken showers, all 5 of us. Mainly cold ones despite our hot
water. We're drenched in sweat 10 minutes after we get dressed. We
tried to distract ourselves with a card game but it didn't work!
The blessings, despite the discomforts, are many! The "alleluias" are
loud as we know that it could've been much worse! Our whinings in our
head, never out loud, are purely out of discomfort and inconvienience.
We have a home and 2 apartments that are all in one piece AND dry! We
have 5 vehicles, fully gassed up, that havn't had any damage.
I am sad for my puppies, Sofie & Sye. They're hot. I'm asking God to
help us to get through tonight. We're told that tomorrow night we'll
begin to feel the comforts of a cool front! Praise the Lord!!!!!
We're excited!

Our prayers are with you tonight as you rest. We're thankful for your
partnership in life & in prayer.

Alleluia!
+rb.

Hurricane Ike Aftermath...

2008-09-13T17:18:00.001-05:00

It's almost 5pm, on the same day that Ike made landfall here in TX.
It's been a day of work for my family...picking up pine cones, raking
the yard, pulling stuff out of the shed. My dad's done most of the
work and has done a great job! He's such a hard worker and we're
thankful for his dedication to our family's home and well being.
We have a small, battery powered radio/tv that we've used to stay
informed. Watching the news is kinda overwhelming! There have been so
many skyscrapers damaged, windows blown out, walls caved in, etc.

This is what boggles my mind...there are ppl who are having to be
rescued in areas that were manditory evacuation cities, like
Galveston. I'm shocked by peoples' ideas that they could stand this
storm despite authority's warning words. The coast guard is working
really hard as are all of our state, county and city officials.
They've done a wonderful job!

Please pray for those who are in east Houston, Galveston, and the
"Golden Triangle" of Orange, Beaumont, & Port Arthur. There are over 2
million w/o electricity! There are hospitals flooded and schools
being opened up as shelters.
All in all, much much much to praise and thank the Lord for and much
to ask for Him to relieve, heal, and bless.
Your prayers are much appreciated and much needed. God reward you!

I love you!!!!
+rb

Heeeeeeere's IKIE!!!!!

2008-09-12T23:51:00.001-05:00

Hurricane Ike has officially made landfall and we are beginning to see
the winds pick up speed. All is well so far here. We have 6 pups
(sofie, sye, lexi, buddy, stewie, & duna) and 6 people (me, michael,
tula, madeline-our neighbor, my mom & dad) in my mom & dad's house in
northwest Houston.
I'll send updates as I have them. Going to sleep now for a little bit.
Love!!!!

+rb & crew.

"winds and rains and twisters, o my!"

2008-09-12T16:46:00.005-05:00

Hurricane Ike....what a big guy, hu? He has turned out to be much more powerful than I expected. Quite a party spoiler, if you ask me! (unless you're in LA, then it would be a cause for a PARTY!!!!)

As I observe the world around me today, I'm realizing a few things.

First of all prepping for a hurricane is like riding a bike....you never forget!!

I remember Katrina and Rita 3 years ago and how that affected the 3 of us that "hunkered down" (i love that!) immensely. We were as prepared as we could have been and still were really NOT prepared, at all. Yesterday & today Ive witnessed the panic that unknown situations bring. I've seen the eyes of fathers who need batteries for their families but cannot get them b/c the last store open has just closed their doors. I've watched as trucks with plywood-filled beds travel down Hwy 6 with a mission to cover windows. I walked into CVS Pharmacy to see a line that wrapped around the entire store and ONE clerk to check out.
Although the city is different than the one I was in 3 years ago, the reaction is the same. My heart is concerned for those who rely on others to take care of them. I am paying special attention to the homeless...they are catching my eye on the street corners, more than normal. I am observing animals at the dog park and want to ask each owner "what's your plan if it gets bad? would you take your pup with you?". Today's paper has a picture of a son kissing his elderly mother goodbye as she is taken away to a safer place. She is in a wheel chair and is being evacuated by the state.
I automatically go back to the devastation of Katrina. I go back to the horror stories of the Super Dome & the many that died. I think of the nursing home who didn't evacuate their residents and b/c of that all of the elderly perished when the levies broke. I'm reminded that this could be a life altering situation for many. Myself, my family, my pets included.

I am blessed by my friends and family that check in on us.
Thank you, for the kind concern. I told my mom today, "I feel like I'm seeing a glimpse of who Im really connected with by those who are concerned and thinking of us." Thank you for the text messages, phone calls and the connections you're making with us. Most of all thank you for the prayer...................we appreciate you!

Lastly I wonder if this is what it would be like if we knew Jesus was coming back today.
I am beginning to feel anxious and doubtful that we are prepared enough. I'm hoping I am but in all reality, what's done is done. What's going to happen is going to happen. If I knew that Jesus was going to make "landfall" sometime today I wonder if I would feel somewhat the same way. It's definitely a reality check for me....Am I living life in a way where I am ready to go home at any minute? OR is there still one more target or grocery store run that I need to make....symbolically speaking, of course.
I want to be 100% confidant in my preparations with the Lord...in my life with Him. I want to be assured that all around me will be with me. I want to be aware of those around me and ask them what their Salvation Plan is. It's amazing to me how the Lord can use an everyday situation or a HURRICANE to open our hearts to see Him, hear Him and want to be nearer to Him. I want to be nestled in His safety today and I want to be safe in His Arms, without anxiety, fear or regret.
I think that's the biggest thing.....I dont want to look back and say "shoulda done this or that". I want to be confidant in my walk with the Lord and secure in my place with him. I am challenged to move in His pointings and urgings....

I am fixing my eyes on You, Lord....You are my Rock!
Please continue to pray for us. It's going to be a DOOZY!

In His Grip,
+ragan b.

Mary Claire & Russ!

2008-08-09T19:40:00.008-05:00

We went to Abbeville today and spent time with spiritual family and friends and it was so lovely! It definately makes me want to move back here. Only time will tell what the Lord has for us.

Here are some pictures of our restful evening back at Stacey's house...we were pooped! After a full day, we're hangin' out, watching the Olympics, and having good family time. Michael is chillin' with Russ and I'm sitting with Mary Claire...what a blessing kids are!

It's been a great weekend!!!

Enjoy!

on the road again...& lovin it!!!

2008-08-08T23:37:00.002-05:00

something I love about living in Houston is how close I still am to
Lafayette! I probably return to my home land every couple
months...there's no place like home! I completely agree with Dorothy!

This visit is all about new life and a little baby girl named
Malia Therese Thomas. She is being welcomed into the Catholic family,
through baptism, tomorrow morning & I've been blessed with the
responsibility & priviledge of being her Godmother!!!
Tomorrow at 10am our spiritual & forever bond will be official! Our
love affair has already begun but I'm looking forward to witnessing
the Holy Spirit takle up residence in her little, blameless soul!
So Michael, Tula and I...Along with our dogs-Sofie Marie, Sye, & Lexi
Loo- are on the road again...and can't wait for the lovely time ahead!

Love Yall!
+me.

"true holiness does not mean flight from the world; rather it lies in
the effort to incarnate the gospel in everyday life, in the family, at
school & at work & in social & political involvement.
--PJP2

Save the Planet: One Plant & Recycle Bin at a Time!

2008-07-21T19:24:00.011-05:00

I love Whole Foods Market! I really do! I rarely go in there b/c I'm never prepared. I should go into that place with a list otherwise I will walk out, without fail, spending way too much money! I want to live organically and naturally so badly but sometimes (ok, a lot of times) I am too lazy. I've asked the Lord to help me to treat this planet better...one plant and recycle bin at a time! :)

Today, I went in to purchase some B-12 vitamins & as I walked in, I saw their fresh flowers section. It always catches my eye but I hardly ever stop and purchase b/c it's not on my list. Well, today, I splurged! I've really been convicted as of late of the importance of God's natural intention with our Earth and bodies. I don't know if it's b/c we're going through Natural Family Planning courses or b/c I have an Earth conscience co-worker at my office, but especially since Ive moved to Houston, I want to recycle more and live a Earth friendly life. I ordered our office a recycling bin for the aluminum cans that they get from the soda machine & we're not reordering our styrofoam plates that normally are housed in our break room. In NFP class Im amazed by how perfectly God created women's bodies to carry life. He simply "thought" of everything. :) I want to be a better planet Earth resident. Having an herb garden is a great way to do that!

So, today I brought home to my pups, 3 herb plants (2 small rosemary plants & 1 large sweet lavender plant) and I am super fired up about it. I have plans to plant them this weekend, tropical storm Dolly permitting, and I just can't wait!

PS-Here is a picture of Sofie (black lab mix) & Sye (tri-colored beagle) looking into my apartment from the patio. Aren't they so cute?

i'm so behind...time to catch up.

2008-07-08T14:11:00.009-05:00

Hey everyone! HAPPY JULY!!! It's hot here...
and definitely SUMMER TIME!

This blog thing has really caught on, hasn't it? It seems that almost every day I receive an email from a friend who has caught the blogging bug! I just LOVE it!!!
It's amazing how easy it can be for us to keep in touch with each other via the internet. Through chatting, Facebook'ing, MySpace'ing, emails, IMs and now...BLOGGING! I'm glad b/c since I'm living in a different state than most of my friends, it's a very cool way to see pics of their kids, read stories of their lives and better keep in touch! ALLELUIA! Sign me UP! :)

So much has happened since I last blogged in December. Ive been joined in Houstob by my best friend and sister, Tula. Michael, my fiance, has picked up his life and moved to Houston from Albuquerque, NM and we are enjoying the gift of being in the same town. It's so different but completely wonderful!

Michael proposed on January 2nd in northern California during a visit to the Redwoods. It was a special day & has been a fun ride over the past 6 months! We are getting married on November 1st of this year and we are so excited! We initially had plans of getting married in Louisiana but have since, had a change of heart.
I love Louisiana!! My life & heart has been Louisiana for the majority of my life and to think of getting married anywhere else was really hard at first. Once I realized that I didn't want the location to be known as MY place or as HIS place but as OUR place, Houston was the perfect wedding local! This is where we worship, play, work and serve. This is where the Lord has us in this season of our lives. It makes perfect sense that we would begin our married life here.

For info on our BIG DAY go to our wedding site. We have pictures, stories and details of our wedding prep. Please stop in and say "hi"! We love to hear from our family & friends!

Ok, well welcome back to my blog. As more happens, Ill share. Check out my friends' blogs who have crashed into the blogging world...You'll love to read their lives on here!

Im off to meet with the florist for our wedding!!! FUN!

LOVE YOU MUCHO!

Holiday LOVE!

2007-12-22T23:58:00.001-06:00

Its been a while and for that I apologize. I have been traveling around to people's blogging sites and I must say that this blogging thing is WAY COOL!

This holiday season is HERE! Ill spend Christmas here in my new home, Houston and spend New Years with Michael & his family in Oregon. Im so excited to see that place in the winter. I heard we MAY go fishing!!! Im so excited about that!

My best love is sent your way this holiday season and know you are in my heart and prayers! You will be remembered at Christmas Eve Mass Monday night!

O Holy Night...

LOVE!

& we begin...

2007-10-20T00:32:00.000-05:00

Good Morning All!!!

SO many of you have emailed/called/facebook'ed/myspace'd me and asked "how are you?" or "how's Houston?" or "when are you coming back home?" :) I decided that since most of you have been strong prayer warriors in my life before and during this transition, you deserve a response to those valid and thoughtful questions.

How are you?
That is a loaded question, i assure you!

I think of "home" often. I am reminded of individuals and events daily. I am seeing my life, my world and YOU, my family/friends in a new light that i very much needed... completely unbeknownst to me. It's such a cool place to be. Not only do i love that there is a coffee shop on EVERY corner and that there are some of my fave places in the world to shop within a few miles of where i live, but i also appreciate the ALONE time that I have here. My friend base is very small only b/c i have only been here about 3 months. SO, i am simply moving in what God lays before me. Some days i look around and think "what am i doing here? Im SO LAFAYETTE, in and out!!!" and others i think "Thank you Lord for broadening my horizons and bringing me here!!!" Mainly, its the second. A month ago i had a break down and thought there was no way i could do this....leave all i love and stay here???? WAS I INSANE!? Then, that evening I went to Bible Study and the Lord, in His extreme faithfulness, spoke to my heart, WORDS of encouragement. So, although Ive been on the verge of that moment of insanity since, Ive allowed the Lord to take me back to His place of TRUTH on my life.

When i really STOP and look over the past year I'm dumbfounded by God's Hand of protection, provision and patience with and over me. It's completely obvious to me that He has placed me in this new season of my life -- moving closer to the next "stage" but yet all the same, waiting on Him to reveal the beauty of "whats next". Being involved in Youth Ministry for so long, but especially at St. Elizabeth Seton is my greatest source of "holy pride" when i look over the past 7 years. People ask me why i don't get involved in Youth Ministry here in Houston and my answer is that Ive been a part of the best -- CORE TEAM, TEENS, PARISH -- and I'm satisfied. I will eventually get back into music ministry in some capacity, I know it. God is preparing my heart for that already. i just don't know when, how or where. I have just signed up to be a Lector and Eucharistic Minister at the Youth mass on Sundays at St Edith Stein Catholic Community. As doors open there i will serve as God leads me to.

My JOB is wonderful. I am with my office family more than anyone else during a week so we really are becoming family. It's a treasure to see how God has placed me here. I am able to see what "corporate america" looks like. it's drastically different from hanging out with Amelie Menard and my teens on a given day, i assure you -- it's a good change, though. Im learning alot and i am truly interested in what The Schumacher Group offers the world -- solid health care. what a gift!

The largest gift here at TSG is my boss who is teaching me that male bosses are not always verbally abusive. I have some deep wounds that i was not even aware of while in Lafayette but have experienced the effects of them here. He is gentle. He does not yell, name call, rudely ignore or verbally hurt me like i experienced so often in my previous position. That alone is worth being here. I am valued and appreciated by my boss and that is refreshing to me. I didnt feel worthy of that for the first month or so. Then, after much reflection and a solid start to dealing, I realized that the way i was treated before was not God's best for me.

My family and i have really enjoyed this time together over the past few months. As most of you know i have lived with them and have really been blessed by that experience. In a few weeks, though i will move into my own apartment. That move, although good on so many levels, is bittersweet b/c i DO enjoy coming home to my mom and dad. I LOVE nights crawled up in their bed (all three of us) watching TV or laughing or talking about our days. I DO cherish the special moments that i am able to share with them b/c i am in their home. BUT i need to move out, be independent and take care of myself. SO, i will be moving to Chandler Park Apartments in a few weeks!!! That will be cool...im thankful for the ability to do that. So, the moving crew (Tula, Ali + some) will be here and help me with that. Ill send you pictures.

What i miss the most about Lafayette are my "kids". I miss their faces, their hearts, their good choices and their love. I miss seeing them so often...at games, events, Mass on Sunday -- that was my fave!!!. I am so proud of YALL! i am so proud of who you are in the Lord. I am so thankful that we have been ABLE and given the HONOR of being a part of each other's lives over the past years. You are my joy and EVEN MORE, the LORD'S JOY! i miss you terribly. As i travel i see that what we had was ONE OF A KIND special....our program, our bond, our love, our ACCOUNTABILITY, our PURPOSE in each other's lives was and IS one of a kind. You will never be replaced in my life, my heart or my SOUL!!!!!!!! I ask you this, to continue to love and serve each other. Continue to hold each other to the standard you have established and know to be right. You are, too walking into a new season of your life. Treasure it, hold it close and appreciate every minute of it. Know you are loved by me. Know you are prayed for and thought of daily. Thank you for being such a special part of my life. Your former CORE team is one of a kind, as well. They have sacrificed and given so much to share the Gospel with you. They are committed to you in prayer and love. Although they are not at SES anymore, they hold you in a special place unlike any other. What i would hate is for you to think that since we're not there that must mean we dont care or love you. THAT IS NOT TRUE. we DO love you...you are our family and always will be...ALWAYS!

All in all, i am totally on this journey with the Lord and im hanging on...loving it! i love you. i miss you. i think of you daily. You are my family... You always will be my heart!!!

Let us be committed to loving each other in prayer at Mass (the GREATEST PRAYER!!!!) and offering each other up in the time of petition.

I love you. Peace!